body shamed // karlnap

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"Karl!" I screamed at the boy that almost died from fall damage. "Oh my gosh I almost died!" He said, in a giggly tone. "Hey handsome" said Karl.

"Hello beautiful" I said smiling. It felt weird smiling with my facecam on, but its almost impossible not to when Karl is there. He just has that affect on people.

"Meow" Karl's character was now next to mine. There was a stunning sunset behind us, a setting to only be seen in video games. We made kissing noises and touched our faces together in game.

"Hey sappy nappy! Hope you are well. But, just to let you know Karl is mine >:)"

"I don't see you next to him right now," I said in a tone everyone was familiar with. "Thank you for the dono."

"Sapnap is the only one for me" Karl said, his smile showing through his words. "Yeah, I'm the one marrying him" I said.

"Just here say you're looking great :)"

This time I muted, "Thank you, also thank you for the dono!". I am now once again fully aware of my facecam. "Sapnap, I think you're forgetting that Karl is also mine." Said Quackity.

"Oh, I forgot you were in the call." I responded. "Wowww" he said, offended tone. "I'm here too!" Said Karl. "I know Karl, I would never forget about you" I smirked. "What the hell is wrong with you." Said Quackity, repeating that same sentence four times.

"What is your problem" said Quackity, adding on. "You, I need my husband to myself." I had the tone of an eyeroll. "But I'm your husband too." He said back. "But Karl is nicer." I said.

"But that just makes me better at sex." Said Quackity. "QUACKITY!!" I scolded. "What can I say, I am just great at sex." He said, still on topic.

"Uhhh.. outside of that, we should meet up all together soon" said Karl. "You said I can't share a bed with Sapnap though, how am I supposed to prove I'm better at sex?" Quackity said so carelessly.

"QUACKITY! I SAID OUTSIDE OF THAT!" Karl scolded while giggling. I laugh as well, listening to them argue was the funniest. I unlocked my phone and opened tiktok, moving my phone closer down so the stream isn't focused on it.

I scroll for a couple minutes, Karl and Quackity still bickering. I liked a couple videos of todays stream, coming across somethings from not more than a couple minutes ago.

I check the comments, the comments are typically funnier than the video. Not this time.

user1004829201948- sapnap never even cares about Karl nor Quackity.
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user1029838382818- he looked so cool on todays stream!! <3
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I scrolled farther into the comments 50% being rude and hateful. One caught my eye...

user1029299399394- Sapnap is literally so fat. Why do people simp over him? He's bigger than his terrible personality. Maybe it would be better if it were just Karl and Quackity.
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I get body shamed often, it hurts, but this one hurt the worst.

Not too long after, I ended the stream. Not long after that, I left the call between Karl and Quackity. I had left Dream's house not too long ago because our time had been up, meaning that I was back in Texas.. Alone.

I walked into my bathroom to shower. I took my shirt off, throwing it onto the floor. I was about to finish getting ready for a shower, when I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I turn around to take a better look, hating every second of it.

I was fat. I need to loose weight, otherwise there is just no point of showing my face anymore. I finished getting ready, slight tears in my eyes, and a frown on my face.

When I get out, its cold. There's a breeze hitting my face.. and my stomach. I look at myself in the mirror again, immediately regretting it. Regardless on the fact that I had already saw myself not too long ago, I began to cry again, like it was the first time I had seem myself like this.

I got dressed in a hoodie with a pair of black sweatpants. I laid on my bed, cuddling my own pillow.. crying.

"I don't want to look like this.." I kept repeating to myself, quietly, even if no one could hear. I then fell asleep, crying. Something I hadn't done in a while.