The darkness thats comes within

Judgmental looks...

                                      Hogwarts grounds 

I finally reached the huge doors by the front entrance and i cast a spell breaking them open.... 

My hair in the wind is like darkness consuming the light around me... 

My hair had always been dark as the night since i was an infant left upon that doorstep of that horrid orphanage, I had no family in that world unlike that famous harry potter, at least he had somewhere to go somewhere to call home... 

I could've had a place to call home and people to claim were my family but i had been placed in that world until now...

I was running now cloak in hands folded up tightly the wind blowing my hair everywhere...

You could hear the teachers yelling out for me too come back they tried chasing after me but i kept running even when it felt as if my lungs were going to collapse.

It felt like i never had to stop until my legs gave way and i fell the grass was not soft it tore through my skin like thorns, the pain had made my whole legs sting and burn in pain...

Tears trying to escape the glassy prison that kept all my emotions within they burned i tried to force them back down but then i felt the lump in my throat rise higher and higher with every breath, every time I tried to push the emotions further down they grew like weeds in a garden infecting and attaching themselves too everything and anything around them, strangling everything that has been keeping me together my whole life...

 I curled up into a ball and my breathing got more rapid and rushed as the memories came flowing into my mind it was like the dam wall had finally broken, I couldn't hold it back anymore the tears brushed my skin this feeling was nothing new, I knew that I was having another attack  and it was getting worse my breath more rapid the memories worse and scarier...

One of the teachers had finally caught up with me i hadn't known there name but I hadn't noticed much at all because I was screaming and crying trying to shut all the monsters away, the screaming had died down and I had relaxed a little because the memories started to slow I slowly stopped being so tense until I had felt someone speak I nestled myself further into the blades of grass that were still slicing my skin. 

They saw me and yelled out for more help, I couldn't remember what happened after that they must have cast a spell to knock me out so I wouldn't run, the first thing i could remember was waking up and seeing blue medical curtains.

I must be in the infirmary the headmistress McGonagall  can be heard talking to Madame Pomfrey...

"Will she be alright?" Their was no worry in McGonagall's voice its obvious she doesn't care, I mean I am an imposter...

"Yes she will recover just fine...I do think she has some mental illness though, perhaps anxiety or if she was from a pureblood family and the sorting hat hadn't made a mistake then i would say PTSD but there is no family that she belongs too as far as we know thats pureblood so i presume she was just overwhelmed...."

"I must figure out whether or not she is from a pureblood family I mean she does look an awful lot like a you know...."

Madame Pomfrey knew who McGonagall was referring too but she must have been unsure, so she broke the awkward silence.

"She can't be... Can she?I thought he never had another child and if he did she would be a danger to all the other students attending Hogwarts, you know what happened when we let her supposed brother in...we can't let that happen again you know that right?!?"

"We can't discriminate, you know better than that and she was raised by muggles she will not be a risk even if she is a riddle!"

Madame Pomfrey went quiet she sounded furious because of her rapid breathing, I wouldn't know for sure because i couldn't see past the curtain.

"She cast a spell that opened Hogwarts main doors I have never known a first year in all my years working at Hogwarts that could do that Minerva just listen to me!" she quietly screamed 

McGonagall just kept quite, thinking about it then you heard footsteps and a door open then she spoke "You might want to get back to your job Madame" the door closed by itself slowly...

I sat there staring at the ceiling when she came in she simply looked me up and down and told me that I was fine and should be able to attend my next class and that it might be best for me to go back to the Slytherin dorm and clean myself up she kept the conversation short and professional.

When she left to attend to another patient which it seemed when I got up and looked out the curtains and saw there was only one other student a Gryffindor green as the trees vomiting into a bucket the splash was enough to make me queasy...

I quickly and quietly left heading towards the dungeons i was glad everyone was at class.I made it down to the dungeons immediately stripped down from my clothes in the bathroom, I climbed into the shower and turned the hot side up all the way no cold the warmth had sent shivers down my body...

When I was done I got dressed into a new uniform a white blouse and a green pleated skirt your meant to wear their sleeveless sweaters over your blouse but I decided against I liked the cold prickle against my skin. 

I sprayed my signature scent onto my wrist and next after rolling the sleeves to my blouse up, my hair was tied tightly into a ponytail with the front parts of my hair left out to bring out my jawline, I took a deep breath and stepped out into the common room and when I discovered it was not empty I panicked and quickly placed my stone cold mask back on, but they hadn't seen  me. 

Until I kept  walking then they looked up, their chocolate brown hair falling onto there eyes which were previously staring into the illuminated light of there phone you could hear the music blasting into there ears from here, his eyes were a sharp green emerald that looked mystical I had never seen anything like them before...

It felt like he was staring straight through my soul, it was obvious he was a third year unlike me who is a second year...He took his earphones out and spoke with such poise in his voice

"Been awhile since I've seen another student down here not many of us bother too skip, because this... place is meant to be so wonderful" an eye roll followed after his eyes drew back too his phone "But it's obvious that your not skipping" he looked me up and down twice before his eyes met mine...

I wasn't letting this... boy push me around a arched a freshly shaped eyebrow speaking with twice as much poise as what he did not trying too seem stuck up 

"Wanna bet on that" his eyes drifted back towards his phone 

"Well this isn't an invitation to join but sure I'd like too bet on that, but i've got a question for you too answer before you join me"

I was curious on what his question was so I stayed...