A Place on the Other Side

Bella [Entry 1]

Hi, I'm Bella,

I am a Golden Retriever girl who loves to play and frolic around. This is day 1 of me writing down my thoughts. First let me give you some backstory! I was brung home on June 1st of 2006. Eve though I miss my mama I love it here with my new family. My human pack has two tiny girls and one big mama human. They love me very much. Mama always told me never to get in trouble with my humans so I tried my best to be a good good girl. I peed on the floor once....okay three times, but only because I couldn't hold it anymore. My home is really big, with hardwood floors, a big backyard, and a little house for me in the back. My life was perfect, the girls loved to throw sticks at me and make me go get it. It was a lot of fun! I hated bath time, the water is always so cold. I enjoy being brushed all the time, my humans give me tons of pats on the head! So, that's my life, but things slowly started to change in it. Let me tell you.

    October 5, 2009

              I was walking my human girl home, lets call her Lily. Lily loves it when I walk her to and from school. She has such a beautiful smile. That day was normal, but the next day I walked to her school to pick her up and..she wasnt there. So I thought, maybe she went home without me, so I ran all th way back home to lookf or her. I searched inside and outside and couldnt find her at all. I ran to my big human to see if she knew where Lila was but she diddnt notice me. She smelled of fear and anger but, there was nothing to be angry at. I was a little confused, maybe she was mad at me. I didnt want to amke her any mad so I left her alone to talk on her little box. The other sister, lets call her Amanda, came home right on time. I greeted her with kisses, lots and lots of kissed! Oh I love her so much, I cant help but make my tail wag. She smiled at me, which was good. Big human, lets just call her Mother, rushed over and hugged Amanda tightly. Maybe she was happy that Amanda was home too, but where was Lily. i had almost forgot about her, she still hasnt come home. I could smell salt in the air, why was Mother sad? I was even more confused now, so U had a great idea. I ran out through the doggy door and ran down the side walk. I was goingt to go find Lily before Mother did and maybe sh would stop being so mad at me. I ran back to the school, it was crowded now. Large white trucks with flashing lights were at the front of the school. Men in suits, i think they are called police, stood at the front of the building. I was naturaly curious so I walked into the crowd. I could smell blood but I ignored it.I think that a police man saw me and was yellinga at me. I diddnt undertand what he was syaing though. I think he was angry at me, but i dont know why. Why was everyone mad at me today, have a done something wrong. I cocked my head and barked at him. I thought that he would understand me but he diddnt. I thought i would truy harder my walking closer to him, I wanted to ask him if he had seen Lily. The man lept at me, I felt scared so I ran away. I felt so defeated. I just wanted to help Mother. I walked through the doggy door again and police man were inside. Mother was crying on the floor and Amanda was hiding behind her. Then I heard Amanda call my name, "Bella" She cried. The rest I couldnt understand. I watched the police leave. I stared at Mother. i walked over to Amanda who help me tight. She smelled of saddness. maybe she lost her favorate stuffie or bad a bruise. I lciked her face to make her feel better and for a moment it seemed to work. Mother suddenly grabbed Amanda and dragged her upstairs. Mother seemed hostile so I diddnt dare follow. I sat at the bottom of the stairs waiting for Amanda, but just like Lily, she diddnt return. Mother came back downstair and patted my hair, i lept with joy. i had been waiting all day to eat. I dont understand was was happening but I was still happy! Mother set down my bowel of food, this time it was he mushy stuff. I rarely got to eat this at all so my tail was wagging. I barked at Mother tellig her thank you. She smiled at me and patted my head again before sprinkleing some white powder stuff on my food. I diddnt care...I was blinded by happiness. A few hours later, i felt sick, my head hurt. I threw up a couple times as well. i looked around for Mother who was leaving the house. Why? Mother closed the door and blocked off teh doggy door. Why? I felt my body shutting down, my bones growing weak. I was going to die. I still diddnt undertand how my life could turn upside down in two days. I barely even heard the words "I love you bella" in a month. I layed down on the floor, my tail still wagging. I know that Mother will come back and burry me, she will, she loves me. The light was growing dark for me. My legs wanted to run but I couldnt move. Before I knew it, I was gone. All I saw was a golden bridge. My mama had told me about it, its the path that every dog walks to go to the great place on the other side. A haven, is what I was told. I had no choice, i was dead, no one was around. So I walked up the golden bridge into the clouds above. What had happened. I lost everything in such a short time. Am i even a dog anymore. Whatever, Mother still loved me enough, she diddnt do anything to harm me. Ive been a good girl. A good dog named Bella. This was my story, of how I died. 

                             R.I.P Bella - Winter Fellow  [ New story every wendsday]