The Secret Agents (5sos AU) (DISCONTINUED)

Chapter 5: Luke's Early Life

A/N TRIGGER WARNING!!

Luke's PoV:

I am in deep shit now why the hell did i tell them that?!?!? every time im asked about my past or if i talk about it then I start to get flashbacks and they are absolutely AWFUL!! i see Ash opening his mouth to say something but i don't hear it its like i was pulled from the real world and thrown head first into a flashback...

*FLASHBACK*

"BOY GET HERE NOW!!!"
I never liked my daddy mad or my older brothers, why did mummy have to leave? she may of stopped this, against my will i managed to limp down the stairs without falling down them, i was limping because of the beating i took from my brothers yesterday, why is it always me that takes the beatings does my daddy and my brothers not love me or something?

"well looks like the little one can still walk obviously we didn't hit him hard enough yesterday did we Ben?" "your right there Jack" my older brothers were smirking and daddy was glaring at me with his gaze full of hatred by now i knew better to talk or try and run away when the three of them were mad... i was ripped from my thoughts by punch to my stomach and TRYING not to cry out in pain I doubled over i was never a strong person next thing I know I received a kick to the ribs, then a punch to the back this went on and on until i could feel blood running down my face and neck from where i took a punch to the nose.

I also had cuts on my back where from? i don't know but i was almost out cold... "that's enough for today... we'll see if he has enough sense to-" "dont talk like that dad! he's a kid and if you say that and he does it and the authorities found out that you said that to him it would go down as aided suicide do you want to get arrested?!?" i though i heard Jack yell im smart for my age and i know what would've been said but tomorrow i wont be here tomorrow if im successful ill be far away from here and out on the street...

*End of Flashback*

well for once that's actually quite a tame flashback better than some if the ones I've had previously.... *snap* my head shot up at that noise i looked up to see that Ashton had snapped his fingers in front of my face "were you even listening Luke?!?" Cal sounded pissed "no I wasn't. and if im perfectly honest i dont want to talk about what i just saw..." i muttered that last part to myself unfortunately for me Ash heard that last part as I went to walk out of the door Ash pinned me to the wall and said " what did you mean by that last part you muttered Luke?"

Ash asked unlike Cal he didn't sound pissed but the fact that i was pinned to wall was scaring me because of my past instead of answering i started squirming trying to get free from Ash's grip i think Ash noticed something was off and let go of me the three of them were looking at me like i was made of glass and that id break... I guess after all this time of closing myself off to everyone was starting to shatter me from the inside and i was also starting to think that if I didn't open up to the boys about what happened before THEY found me and no im not thinking of that I promised Ash, Cal and Mikey that I wouldn't dwell on that anymore.

Like i was saying if i don't open up now and I break on the inside then I doubt that anyone will be able to fix me... "Luke... you.... you look... scared, petrified even what happened please i cant stand to see my best friend like this anymore..." Mikey looked like he was about to cry... and i have NEVER seen Mikey cry "Luke, Mikey's right seeing you like this... I... It... I don't even know what to say" Ash finally got out I've never seen Ash at a loss for words...

"Luke i i I'm sorry for snapping at you, fuck your past is darker than all of ours put together... No offence meant mate but i don't know how your still sane" Cal tells me looking at the three of them makes me realise something perhaps i don't have to be alone any more, perhaps after all this time i finally have a family... "Boys, you may want to sit down for this..." I tell them looking down i think thats when they realise that im actually opening up to them so they sit on the floor and i do as well and hesitantly i tell them my very early past.

About the fact that i was abused by my father and two older brothers when i was very little and about the fact that growing up I had no mother, no one i could turn to, that i felt alone 24/7 and finally i told them that ran away from home and until THEY found me i was a street child and a very skinny one at that because i barely found time to eat, and finally i told them the worst thing of all: that it was only today that I finally realised that somebody was there for me, that someone actually cared enough for me to try and reach out to me and break my four walls down...after I finished talking the three of them had tears flooding down their faces and the next thing i knew they were hugging me and they all said the same thing at the exact same time "we're your family now Luke please don't feel scared to talk to us we'll always be here for you... you deserve to be happy and we will NEVER fail you like your real family did, your not alone anymore... and you will never be alone again, we promise." Hearing those words i hugged them back finally allowing myself to crack and just cry in front of them just knowing that they cared for me and would reach out to me when i needed it most.

A/N I cried reading through this😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭HOW THE FÛCK DID I WRITE SOMETHING SO SAD?😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ~~Anna~~