I Felt As If I Didn't Know Who I Was.

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Hello. I am Naina. I am 24 now but what I am going to say now was what happened when I was about 12 to 13 years old.
I was a very diligent student in class. I didn't top my class but was definitely second or third. My mother used to ask me things like " How much did Manvi Get in her test? " , "Why do you not get full marks in your test? Try to do better", etc. She was never rude but I felt I was always compared to my elder sister and Manvi(who was the class topper). My elder sister was the sports captain in my school. And she is now an IFS officer. Both my parents and my sister used to think of my future and that how would I become a doctor...while on the other hand, my two brother were always involved in business and other stuff, and didn't really care about my progress in studies since they were really poor at it. I loved the dancing and love it till date but just because my one fake friend told me that I was really bad at it...I left dancing professionally. I didn't know who I was, whether I even had my own choices or not. I always cared about other people's opinions and ignored mine. If I spoke for myself I would be called a disrespectful child whereas if I didn't speak up, I was called" Respectful ". I was always ashamed of my weight and that how I was growing fatter day by day but then I stopped. I told myself that  I was Perfect  and I didn't need to listen to people's opinions and statements which were really offensive. You should remember too that you are Perfect!

I stopped caring about what people would think if you wear a spaghetti top on this chubby body, I stopped caring about what people would think about my stretch marks

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I stopped caring about what people would think if you wear a spaghetti top on this chubby body, I stopped caring about what people would think about my stretch marks. But I couldn't stop caring about my parent's opinions. Because I loved them too much and still do and I don't regret it.
They told me that I should become a doctor which is usually what most of the Indian parents think of, either a doctor or an engineer. But then again few parents are sometimes creative and dont want their children to be in such professions but that's a whole different story so lets not talk about it.
I was studying, I scored great marks and got into this amazing coaching institute for my preparation to get into an amazing collage. And I was successful, I got into my dream collage! Those five years in collage were the best, I made some amazing friends and also learnt how to save a human for death. And now,  I Am A Successful Doctor!
So by this I want you to understand that you should not care about people's opinions until and unless you know the people giving advices are the ones who care for you. And trust me you will be successful like me one day too.

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