Beautiful tragedy (fallen angel deku AU)

chapter 1

jump

I shouldn't, I need to be a hero.

a quirkless loser like you could never be a hero, you would die in the entrance exams!

kacchan...

if I'm telling you honestly, no I dont think you could become a hero without a quirk

all might...

the quirkless loser wants to be a hero!

shut up! I wont listen to you!

no one would care if you died!

I said shut up!

All might never cries! youll never be a hero

no...

useless

shut up!

worthless

please! be quiet...

deku

shut up! shut up! shut up!

DEKU!

NO! GO AWAY!

take a swan dive off the roof and pray for a quirk in you next life

I... but what about mom?...

im sorry izuku!!

mom... she never believed in me either...

jump

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I was just left on the roof, its like all might wants me to jump. he probably does, I don't blame him. I cant take it anymore. I dont want to live, its just an annoyance to everyone I know! I ruin peoples days just by living! im a waste of my moms well earned money!

I slowly get up from my position on the floor after collapsing. I walk over to my school bag and get out the notebook all might signed, I rip out the page and fold it neatly. I rip out another page not so ceremoniously and start to write my final goodbyes in shaky handwriting. I decide ill give kacchan all might's signed page as I know he looks up to all might just as much as I do, they even share the same beliefs. they both think that im a useless loser who should probably die.

why else would kacchan tell me to jump? why else would all might leave me on a roof after crushing my dreams? they want me dead. and thats what ill give them. I address my mom in a letter and apologise, I also apologise to everyone in my class and all the teachers for having to put up with me in another, I apologise to all the police who will be burdened by my suicide and I apologise to the medical examiner who will have to cut my dead body up.

I apologise to the trees who had to die to make this page, I apologise to the manufacturers for such a useless person using their products, I apologise to the bugs who will use me as food and I apologise to the plants who take in my carbon dioxide. I apologise to the landlord for jumping off their roof, I apologise to all the other people who could've been the child of my parents instead of a useless deku like me, I apologise to everyone I can think of. even the binmen, the shopkeepers, the council, the government, all the heros I look up to and everyone in japan who pays their tax so a place in a school could be given to a useless deku like me. I apologise for everything, every little inconvenience ive caused.

I wrote much more but there's no point in addressing it, im going to be dead soon anyway. at least I finished what I promised I would, I hope they like my updated drawings and analysises, especially the police department.

I take off my shoes and put the pages in one of them so it doesn't blow away, I put my bag down next to them and attached a note to All might's signature saying it was for kacchan. I stepped over the railings, still holding on but feeling free already. the wind running through my untameable hair, my eyes watering from the wind hitting them, the gentle feel of the little weight the wind put on my shirt helping calm me.

I take a deep breath of the clean air, closing my eyes, listening to the sounds of the world for the last time. there was the humming of car engines, laughter, the tapping of high heels, the sound of a nearby busker and the clatter of hourly train in the background.

I finally open my eyes again to see the sun setting, ive been standing here longer than I though but its the perfect thing to look at before I die. the hues of pink, purple and orange blending perfectly, the clouds looked almost like cotton candy. the subtle warmth of the setting sun mixing with the chill of the night. it was perfect.

a deep breath, the losing battle and the relaxation of my muscles.

the memories swarming my head, the bittersweet feeling of it all and the sting on my cheeks.

one foot forward, leaning over the edge, my arms the only thing stopping me from falling now.

one last look at the sunset before closing my eyes for the last time.

I let go...

the wind attacking my body and a cloud forming in my head, the dread of leaving, the smile of freedom.

the ground making slow contact with my stomach sending a seething pain down my entire body, my back hurting more than most.

but my heart, my mind, it regretted it so gravely that it physically hurts but its too late now...

Im sory mom...

then there was the darkness that consumed me.