My Drug. (L.T)

Part three.

;One Year Later;

"Thank you all for coming tonight! Its mean a lot to us!" Liam shouted to the crowd.

"Exactly what liam said! We wouldn't be here without any of you guys!" Niall added. "All you have to do, is look around us to see what you have done for us."

"You'll have us all crying Ni, Stop." Zayn said with a fake pout on his lips. 

"See what you did Niall." I giggled, "Even i have fake tears falling."

That's the first time I've spoke since the day of Dani's funeral. At her funeral at the coffee shop, i was thinking, If she cant speak then neither will i, But after a year of not speaking, it gets heard ya'no. You're probably wondering 'If you wasn't talking how did you manage staying in the band' well, to answer your question, singing and speaking are different things in my eyes, Singing isn't a choice i have, whereas communicating through speak is my own choice and i chose not to for a while. Till now that is.

"What?" I spoke into the microphone. I've never heard a crowd go so quiet from seeing the boys shocked faces.

"Well okay then, As the rest of the lads have said , We wouldn't be here without you!" The crowd went wild as i pointed around the room. "You and you and you. And everyone, We wouldn't be here with out every other person in this room. I don't know where i would be now." I chuckled. "I'd probably still be working at Toys R Us."

"I'd still be working in the bakery." Harry sighed. "Man, i miss that place."

"Awrh, Harreh." I cooed as i walked over and pinched his cheeks, Well aren't i a little happier today. "Barbra will pinch your bum again, one day." I winked at him and pinched him bum.

"Shut up, Lou!" He smirked.

"Anyways, I believe that's all for tonight guys. Thank you, once again, for taking time out to spend an evening with us lads." Zayn finished and we all said out good-byes and exiting the stage, Before i was attached with questions.

"Lou, You spoke?"

"yeah, its been years lad."

"I know guys, and i'm sorry. I didn't know any other way to cope with my sadness and to keep my anger-" I started.

"Louis Tomlinson, Are they actual words being formed from your mouth." Came a shocked voice from the door, Louise Teasdale. Our beautiful make-up artist and out tour buddy. 

"Yes, Lou. Real words." I spoke sarcastically as Lou engulfed me in a massive hug,

"Nothing much has changed then no?" She chuckled, "Welcome back twin." She winked before walking off and heading back next door to the make-up room.

"Sooo." I smiled.

"Are you feeling okay? Do you want some water? Food?" Niall and Harry bombarded with me questions with a worried expression planted on there faces.

"No i'm fine."

"Welcome back Lou." Harry said and the other lads said something along though's lines, ending up in a group hug.

"Thank you guys, Its good to be back." I sighed. "Anyways, I'm gonna get to the coffee shop."

"Again? You got there after every show? You have done for the past year? Don't you think its time to let go." Niall said without realizing.

"Niall!" Harry exclaimed.

"Niall, you should the fuck up. yeah i go there a lot, But i wont let go of what was. She's still with me and its my only place of closure. So fuck off, alright." I snapped, with that i turned on my heal and walked out.

...

"Ah, Mr. Tomlinson, The usual?" The barrister asked, in a gentle voice.

"Thank you," I smiled politely before heading to towards the usual booth, in front of the window. I sat there for a few moments. As i reached for my phone, a brown, curly head girl  caught my eye, as she headed my way with 2 cups in her small hands.

"Caramel latte, as always Louis." She sighed, placing the cup down on the table. "You should try there hot chocolate, Its lush."

"Maybe next time, Mills."

"You say that every time." That's Millie Hall, Brown hair, Blue eyes, Tall, Skinny and very funny. I met her here as few months back and we got on really well and we've been meeting here at the same time most days after a show.

Millie is really beautiful, but.. Shes not Dani, Nor will she ever be Dani. Nobody can replace my Dani. She doesn't even know about Dani, I told her i'd tell her when im ready, and she accetped that and didnt force me into telling her.

"Whats up, Tommo?" I smiled at the nickname, Ive only ever heard Harry call me that.

"Im good, I was just thinking." I said. As i run my long, slender finger through my now messy hair. 

"About-"

"I can trust you, right?" I interruped, "Sorry for interruping.

"Its fine, And yeah of course you can." She said.

"I think im ready to tell you now." She nodded, she knew me well and she knew what i ment by that. Shes a lovely girl and i trust her with me life, i havnt known her long, but i feel like ive known her a lifetime and more, She's truly amazing.

"A year ago, this time. My girlfriend- Well, Ex girlfriend Died from Lou Gehrigs Disease. But i didnt know about it till two days before she passed and we had a massive argument about it, which cause her to leave." I paused for a seconds, as tears welled in my eyes, before carrying on. " She left the flat in a state and i was an idiot and didnt follow her, Then an hour or so later, i got a phone call of her brother, Harry, Styles that it. She was Danielle Styles. Anyways, he rang me to tell me she was in hosptital and the doctors said there was nothing they can do help her. Lou gehrigs is uncurable. From the day of her funeral i stopped talking completly, that was untill i met you, You're the only person i spoke to, well that was untill today, i've litrally just started talking to the lads." I sighed. "Harry thought he was going through shit, I know it was his sister and all, but he hadnt just lost the girl her loved more than life itself, he didnt lose his only reason to breath and exist. i lost the only girl i ever loved that day, and Harry didnt even tell me..." I trailed off.

"Louis, You didnt have to tell me that. Im sorry." She said as she reached over to wipe away my tears.

"Im sorry, its still hard knowing shes gone, And i cant hold her in my arms anymore. You know? I miss her to much."

"I understand. I really do. I understand, more than you think." She sighed.

"Millie, Whats wrong?" I asked as i noticed tears sliding down her face.

"I didnt want to hurt you, Lou. i was scared." She cried out.

What is she talking about?

"Millie?" 

"Im sorry, I have to go." Was all she said before she grabbed her coat and walked away leaving me alone and confused.

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