cursed love| eren jaeger x reader

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"this is what makes us girls. we all look for heaven and we put love first something we die for it's our curse."

You woke up with the biggest headache after your drunken night with Sasha and Ymir. All you wanted to do was sleep and forget about it. You were not ready to head to work because you recently started your first job at the bookstore and did not want to leave a bad impression. You decide to call off and make a poor excuse on a dead relative passing away and needed time to grieve for the weekend.

It was not like you hated your family, but you were not opposed of moving away from your parents. The number of times you have tried to communicate or interact with your parents, it almost exhausting and draining your soul to such hateful energy surrounding them. You were suffocating and felt impossible to escape.

Eventually you decided to start saving money with Mikasa to move out together. It was not long after your parents realize your plans and try manipulating you into staying with them. If it's one thing your family shared together was taking their toxic traits and seeing right through them. You didn't necessary bonding with your mother. She spends most times working to provide for the family and when she didn't work, it was sleeping most days leaving you alone. You understood your mother's struggle, you grew up maturely as a child.

Your father was present physically but not emotionally for you. His presence felt like temporary mark, leaving you in the dark with a little love on the table. It made you crave validation in the wrong hands of men. It caused problems in your youth with troubled boys and for your parents. It wasn't like you weren't naïve that boys were using you. You enjoyed the attention that you were lacking and found it in others regardless of if it was temporary. In the end, you felt it and craved more of it.

You walk to the bathroom to brush your teeth and follow your morning skin care routine. Then you process on fixing yourself up to a long t- shirt and met your eyes with Mikasa standing outside the door.

"You left me here with floch." She hands you a bottle water and jumps on the bathroom counter. You laugh at her as she pushes you against the door. "It's not funny, I could've ended up fucking barbie ken."

You said nothing but started laughing hysterically at her. Mikasa wraps her arms around your neck and pretends to choke you. Then she processes to kiss your cheek and walk away. You move out the bathroom to grab something to eat, seeing Sasha, and jean passed out on your coach. Sasha's legs were on top of jean's head while jean peacefully hugging the pillow.

"Y/N!" Connie whispers and pulls out a sharpie to draw on jean's right cheek. He carefully tries to outline what looks like a dick and giggles in the process . He fails to complete the task with your laughter . You quickly cover your mouth and tried to munch on your pop tarts. Then Sasha wakes up and makes eye contact with you, reaching her hand to grab your pop tarts.

"Aw you're so sweet Y/N." She mumbles and takes a bite of the half-eaten pop tart. She then kicks jeans head causing Connie to jump and throw the sharpie. Jean grunts and shift to his left side to readjust his sleeping position. Sasha stretches out her legs and shaking uncontrollably as she pretends to moan out. Jean grips Sasha's leg and pushes them off the couch. She then slaps jean's back with her foot.

"Move your bigfoot cardboard feet!" Jean shouts, throwing the pillow at Sasha.

"Shouldn't you be sleeping outside with your horse family." Sasha straightens up and walks to the bathroom.

While Connie and you start hysterically laughing at their argument. Jean then makes eye contact with you both, making you both hold in your laughter. You found it unbearably funny how jean tried to be intimating and it almost fails every time.