High School Endings

Chapter 15

Naomi Mason

I couldn't stop thinking about Randy.

All week he was all i have been thinking about. Also the fact that he hasnt barely talk to me this week either. Am i loosing my mind or do i think something terrible is going to happen because thats my fear. I love him so much and i can't loose him i can't. I might have not show him that lately but i do love him so much. Oh god why am i always thinking of the worst. What if he thinks of the worst? Stop it! this is going to drive me insane

On another note i have to rehearse for the stupid talent show tomorrow. Right now i'm sitting on my bed practicing the notes on my guitar. I'm not going to be playing on guitar. I practice the notes over and over again. I don't want to mess up and embarrass my self in front of everyone. Why did i agree to do this?

Because of Randy.

Thats exactly why and now here I am thinking he is going to break up with me anytime soon.

Stop that!

Ugh why can't i just focus.

I continue to play singing the notes perfect as the way they are. Every note is perfect.

"I can never get tired of hearing that voice." Someone said

I brought my head up from my guitar to see Randy standing in my door way. It seems like he is hesitant to come in.

I give him a smile "Yeah well I have to practice for tomorrow. Don't want to embarrass myself."

He shakes his head "You're not going to embarrass your self, You're way to talented."

I smiled at his kindness but he is always like that "Thank you."

"Look Naomi we need to talk." He says

My heart leaps in my mouth

I hesitate to put my guitar down "Okay about what?"

"Us." He says quietly

I think my heart stopped

He's going to leave you, He's going to leave you

"Okay" i said to him

"I dont know if this is the right time to talk but i've been thinking about it since our fight in school. i can't get it out of my mind." He starts

"About what?" I press him on about it

"That you're not happy."

My eyes widen "Why would you think that?"

"because i know naomi." He snaps " I dont want to keep fighting with you. I dont know what your going through but i know its bad. Your not let anyone in, your not letting me in. I can keep trying to figure you out. Im trying to help you. I really am but i cant help you if you cant pushing me away. I want you to be happy Naomi. God thats all i want you to be is happy. You just havent been yourself lately Nay and i just dont know what to do anymore."

I felt tears starting to prick my eyes

"Randy you just dont understand." i say quietly

"Dont you think i know that!? Im trying my god damn best to understand. Im fucking trying." RAndy says a little loudly

"What are you trying to say? " I choak out

"I dont know." He says shaking his head " I guess what im trying to say is i dont think i make you happy anymore."

"Thats some bullshit Randy!"

"Naomi just listen-"

"No you listen!" i cut him off "You think you dont make me happy? You're right i'm not happy but you are not the reason why, but you do make me happy Randy dont you see that you do!"