Venting About Scenarios

My World Crashing Down

Ok so here goes:
I have been recently informed about all of the horrendous events taking place in my life at this very moment. I also have been reminded of all the terrible things that have happened to me before.

What happened on this particular event was me being reminded harshly of my father's diminishing eyesight and how badly it is now affecting us.

We ended up talking about my poor eyesight who's his not at all as bad as his since he has Retinitis Pigmentosa.

((Taken Off Google For A Better Description Than I Can Give))

Retinitis Pigmentosa (RP) refers to a group of diseases which cause a slow but progressive vision loss. In each of them there is a gradual loss of the light-sensitive retinal cells called rods and cones. Most forms of RP are inherited or genetic, though its signs do not necessarily appear in every generation.

It is getting bad along with the "swirly swirlies" which he says happen in his line of vision. Along with the "halos" of light that happen to be just as bad and obnoxious.

RP has no current cure and is attacking my father's peripheral vision. To put it simply, he has tunnel vision that can lead to him going blind.

This is impacting me and my divorced, separated, and troubled family because
1) he can no longer drive at night
2) we need to assist him in everyday sight related tasks
3) for his "job" which consisted of constant airport travel he has reverted to carrying a blind man's cane.

This is hurting me seeing him this way and it is making me concerned about my poor vision. Although it is usually genetically transferred through the mother there is a chance that I could have Retinitis Pigmentosa. Based off what I have seen of my past test results I do not have RP and I should not get it anytime soon.

My mother insists that the yearly test is unnecessary and that my brother and I do not need to recieve the test each year. I believe that me having my eyes dilated will not hurt anything or anyone and the test should be done.

My eyesight is not lost and I prefer to keep it that way but this chapter was not written about me. I am concerned about my father although he told me not to be. He isn't concerned so I shouldn't be yet as always I am. It pains me to see all the subtle changes gojng on that I see as drastic.

For anyone who reads this or is reading this. Please comment your opininon on the whole eye dilating thing because I really need to prove a point.

That's all I have left to say but one thing.

I have to be strong for I carry the weight of many on my shoulders. I need to help and I need not cry myself to sleep again this week for I will pull through. I always do.