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Beautiful Pain pt. 1

Omg it has been forever since I have written in this amazing but I'm so excited to be writing again and I hope that you like this chapter a lot. Toodles enjoy my lovelies ❤ clarrissas outfit is above

Clarrissa's POV

I hate it. I hate thinking he could've done this to me. I hate him. Yet I can't bear to be without him. His words keep echoing in my head. "Studio, tomorrow, meet me there". Should I? Yes. Face the fear factor. Face your pain. Bear it full force because you want him to know. I'm an alpha. I could've been your omega. Now I'm a lone independent wolf. Waiting to attack not withholding any power.
So I do just that. Let's go show him what he lost.

1 painful hour later....

I look stunning. Straight glossy hair. Black body suit top with a red flowy skirt. Nylon tights and black 4in stilettos. I finish my Smokey eye and dab my dark red lipstick. I'm ready to give him my all.
I start my Shiny white Kia optima and drive to his studio.
You can do this. He can't hurt you any more. I'm ready.
I storm through his office door.
"Hello, Mr.mathers"
He looks a bit taken back by my appearance.
"Mrs. Monte you look marvelous" he responds with a snappy end.
He's mocking me! How dare he. Do it back he doesn't scare you.
"You look like a disheveled mutt, if I'm being honest". He looks at me, glares. Then this pitiful look sprawled upon his face.
" Clarrissa, I'm so sorry, I don't want Kim. I want you. I need you. Baby please come back." Two steps forward, five steps back.
I gave in. Rule one: broken
He kissed me. Rule 2 : demolished
He drove me to his place where I made the godawful mistake once again. I fell in deep. He let me believe he would save me. Instead he let me drown further. This wasn't just any kind of pain. This was heart-wrenching pain, unlike any other. This one, this one was my beautiful pain, there wasn't anything I could do about it. Or so I thought