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Entry 2

I remember the day I confessed my feelings, almost like it was yesterday. It's burned into my memory and I don't think it will ever go away.

we were talking and he just out of nowhere asked me something so random yet something I always dreaded the day he would ask, knowing I would tell him no lies. 

"What keeps you up at night darling?" Seeing the dark circles under my eyes and yawning mid-sentence every 5 minutes. It was obvious I hadn't gotten much sleep.

"You" I finally spoke.

"what about me?"

I waited a few minutes trying to figure out how to word my thoughts that were running wild...

"Everything, your eyes, your laugh, smile, hugs, just everything. The way my heart skips a beat when you look at me, the way how you can always make me laugh no matter what kind of day I've had, you know how to make anyone smile with just a little joke that if told by anyone else wouldn't be funny. You know I have feelings for you. It wasn't really a secret, and I made it obvious, you had to have known right?" I continued on. "you made me feel vulnerable you still you, you are like a fountain of good fortune, and maybe I didn't mean to love you this much, or maybe I did. maybe it was fate, I don't know but I do know that every second I spend with you, it's like nothing else matters anymore, and I know that's cheesy but it's true." I spoke in almost one breath.

I felt so terrified at that moment, I thought I was about to lose my best friend. I was about to walk away when he grabbed my face seeming almost hesitant his lips hovered a little over mine by just a few inches that if he leaned down a little more they would touch, and in one small movement he did, just a small touch. Though in that moment of just me and him, I felt there was nothing that would break us apart. and damn did I love him.

Pulling way it took me a few moments to realize what happened and when I did, I opened my eyes and smiled, I smiled so big that my cheeks hurt, but gosh I was happy, the happiness I hadn't felt in so long.

"I have feelings for you too love, and the countless nights I have waited for this moment" He eventually spoke.