Hey kid...
So I'm gonna be straight with you, your life is fucked. You're life is gonna be filled with many many hardships. Lee... the guy your mum is going to marry. Possibly the greatest man you have ever met. He's dead. Died a month before the wedding. Jack... your best friend from start of primary school... he leaves... that's right. The only true friend you had. You're family, they're gone. You can't see them. They abused themselves, and took advantage of ur innocence. Messed with your head. They changed you. You were no longer a little boy, but a monster. Another thing: you become very clingy. you fall in love too easy. However, you're first love was worth it. She was amazing. Beautiful, fun, almost everything. She wasn't perfect, but it was enough for you. And guess what? Being the monster you are, you cause her to leave. You brought about months of sadness for yourself. Loneliness. Chasing girls that barely meant anything to you just so you can feel that feeling of togetherness again. And then, the monster inside you ruins you more. You lose all your friends, again, all due to the beast you have become. You can't call yourself a friend. Throwing away the only people that choose to care for you as much as they care for themselves. But its ok, because you don't stay this way. All the loneliness, it gets to you. All your life you wanted to keep to yourself to make your life easy, and now love is all you crave. You change yourself for the better. Sure, you don't have your close friends or someone you love... or don't you? Well, you made a friend. She's amazing. Possibly the greatest person ever. And what you feel for her. Well, it isn't as strong as love, but its strong. She's the perfect girl. The girl you've wanted all your life. Do you get her? We don't know yet. I'll be honest, I don't think we will. But just because you won't get her, don't lose her as a friend. Hold her close. Remind her of how amazing she is. Remind her that she will get the man she always wanted. Hold her when she's said, and never let yourself be the reason for her tears. Never let her down! No matter what. She's perfect! Nuff said.
Final thing... no matter how bad the things I've done are, they're part of who you are. No matter how much you regret what you've done, it was you that did it. YOU! So never have any regrets. Remember that everything that happens has built you up to become the way I am now. Just remember that its the people that choose to love you that matter, not the people who have to love you
p.s. you play guitar like a boss! xD
