Never Say 'I Love You'

Ch. 000 - The beginning

My dad once told me to love someone I truly loved.
My mom once told me to marry someone who could make me happy.

Love was like a fairy tale.
Love was giving affection to someone else.

And my parents said an omega like me was loved by many, was wanted by many.

I was convinced that I was pretty.
I was convinced that I deserved happiness.
I was convinced that I was loved.

I trusted them.
I believe in them.

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Yet...

That fairy tale ended in only 7 years of my life.

My parents brought their lovers home.

It'd already engraved deep inside my head.

The sound of the ending of a relationship.

The sound of the glass breaking.

The sound of my didi, Wei Yang, crying.

The sound of my gege, Wei Lan playing the hard rock music inside his room.

And the ringing sound inside my head, telling them to stop. I shouted inside my head.

"Stop! Stop it! Don't fight anymore!"

"Don't you love us? Stop shouting! Stop pushing us into each other!"

I put a pillow on my head, blocking any sounds coming from outside my room.

Tears were pouring down without any brake to stop them. I sobbed many times, covering my mouth not to let any loud sound come out of my tiny lips.

I was scared. So scared they'd hit me if they didn't like what I did.
I continued screaming inside my head,

"Help! Please help me!"

"If this pain is what you gain from loving someone, then I don't wanna fall in love!"

"If this is what you call family, then I don't need family!"

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Years went by, it'd been 5 years already and I was 12 this year.

My parents had already settled down. Their other relationships didn't go well so they went back to mend their relationship.

My dad soon got promoted at work.

My mom's business went well.

We're finally a happy family again. Yes, for them. But not for me.

My gege, five years apart from me, was an excellent student, so my parents were proud of him. He was a great alpha.

My didi was a genius as well, so they doted on him too much. In his early age, he was already detected as an alpha with strong pheromones.

Me, Wei WuXian, was no one in my family. I was born as an omega. And my parents had this belief that omegas should be born as girls. It's disgusting to find a male omega.

They often regretted it, "Why weren't you born as a girl? You can marry any man you like."

They would say, "Male omegas are disgusting. They are men, but want to get laid by another man?"