after the break up

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N E S S A

It's been 8 months ever since I came here, I just don't have the strength to leave my family, last month my dad passed away, my mom started working as I stoped posting I dint earn much, I knew I had to go back on social media, I dropped if you love me after I came to New Jersey, I went on social media to post, that's when I saw that Ginny had exposed a lot of things and all my friends/ex friends were getting a lot of hate, most of the things Ginny said I knew it wasn't true, I decided to tweet
"Funny how you think we were friends" I all I tweeted,

"Mom I'm going to move to la again, I'll search for a school for Jillian and I can financially help you I can't just sit here and do nothing" I said, "what about josh what if you meet him" she asked, "mom I'm over him I don't care about it, I'll book tmrs flight" I said

My phone then rang, avani was FaceTiming me, it's been months since I talked with her, I have talked with her after I came back to New Jersey but she doesn't know about my dad and everything

On the FaceTime
vani-: heyy
N-: hi wait let me go up to my room
A-: k
N-: so what's up
A-: saw your tweet what was that for, Addison and all or gi-
N-: ofc not Addison nor mads it was for Ginny
A-: ohh
A-: u going somewhere
N-: la
A-: what?
N-: yeah also don't tell anyone
A-: where are you going to stay
N-: hotel, k I gtg bye
And I hunged up, I texted her reminding not to tell anyone and then started packing,

The next day
After landing and taking her luggage's

As I got out of the airport I took an Uber and went to Starbucks, I got my drink and started to walk to the studio, "heyy nessa long time" I heard a voice, I blinked for a second and there were people with camera all around me, "hi" I said, "yeah long time, actually I enjoyed my life without y'all for 8 months" I joked, "soo are we going to see more of jessa now?" One of them asked.

"no I don't know, probably not" I replied, "well do you and josh still talk" another one asked, "no we don't, we are like strangers now" I said, "why did you unfollow them" some one asked, "it's a long story", "who was your tweet about Ginny or addison and mads" one of them asked, "of course it's about Ginny, me and Addison were like sisters and mads was my best friend I love them but every friendship comes to an end" I said, "well who ended it" he asked, "me" I replied

"so nessa how are you" the one with the biggest camera asked "I'm fine, just hanging in there hbu" I answered and then questioned, "I'm good too how's everything going with your dad and mom" another one asked, I started to tear up, why tf would someone ask that, "uh it's just me my mom and my brother now" I said looking down not seeing where I was walking.

"oh so your dad left?" The same one questioned, "well uh he passed away" I replied, "soo now you and josh would never be friends again" some one else asked changing the subject, "me and josh, uh prolly not idk it's life anything can happen" I said looking down, "that's so crazy that your right, look up half of the sway boys are right there" one of the paparazzi said, I looked up and there they were, I made an eye contact with josh and then Bryce.

"What's up fletcher" josh said giving him a thumb five. I guess he dint see me idk, "Well I uh got to go bye guys" I said to the paparazzis and started walking away, that's when I felt someone grabbing my hand, I turned back and Anthony, he pulled me into a hug but I dint hug him back, "so what do you think about nessa dad passing away" he asked josh, they then turned back and looked at me, that's when I lost it, tears came flooding out of my eye, I pulled away from Anthony and started to walk faster, not looking where I was going, I knew if I stayed I would end up saying to much

I walked until I reached a dead end, "nessa!" Someone shouted, they came closer and closer, I couldn't see who it was, my eyes were puffy, I rubbed my eye and opened to see Bryce and josh standing there, "what do you want" I said wiping my tears, "ness" Bryce said giving me a pity look, and that's when josh pulled me into a hug, I missed him, I literally missed him so fucking much, "I'm sorry" he said hugging me tighter, I replied then "for what, you had nothing to do with his", "no nessa, I'm sorry for not being there for you" he interrupted me, then Out of no where they were white lights flashing, great

"I have to go" I said breaking the hug, I dint even try to look back, I booked an Uber and went to my studio, I was seeing my manager Bree after a long time, I hugged her and then greeted her, "it took you long" she said rubbing my head, "yeah paparazzi" I replied "soo what have you been working on" she asked, "I'll show you" I said, I played the tune I had worked on from my phone and then sang

Does it rain in California?
Only dream I've ever known
Will they love you when you're famous?
Swear you'll never be alone
Hope someday I'll find nirvana
I'll be looking down below
I'll be dead at twenty-seven
Only nine more years to go
I got a bully in my head
Fake love, fake friends
I was broken when you left
Now you hear me everywhere you go
La da di, oh la di da

I sang, "I just came up with this" I said, "that's great" someone said, it was a mans voice but I have heard it before, "jaden" I said bellow my breath, "what if we have someone like with mgk vibe after this" Bree said, I knew where she was going, "jaden, would you like to- she asked, "of course" he replied, today was just great god, "Bree can I talk with nessa in prv" He asked, "sure" is all she said and left

"What" I asked
Jaden-: nessa I know that you hate me and the others rn but uk we dint want to hurt you..
Nessa -: I don't care about it anymore
Jaden-: then why did you ignore us, have you checked how many times we called you?
Nessa-; I changed my number when I was in New Jersey I just got my old phone
Jaden-: see Josh dint mean to, it was all a silly high school lust thing
Nessa-: he isn't a high schooler
Jaden-: yeah Ik, and I appreciate that you dint make it public, and dint reply to all the accusations,
Nessa-: jaden please I don't have time rn I have to search for an apartment and then school for my brother and then a house for my mom and brother
Jaden-: you can stay at the sway house for sometime
Nessa-: no way
And that's when my phone rang, my mom FaceTiming me,