LILY'S POV
We met with Professor Mcgonagall after dinner. A long talk about how we shouldn't attack each others, especially in these dark times. I have to admit that I haven't listened a lot, I was so mad at Severus that my attention was focused on my anger the whole time. I know I shouldn't. I know I should've listened. I have high respect for Professor Mcgonagall. But I couldn't just believe that Severus, my first friend just attached Peter. All of it because of jealousy.
From Sirius' sigh and dramatic yellings, I understood we will have detention each Saturdays afternoons for a month.
Now, we are on our way to the common room to tell the others what happened and why we were late for classes.
" I can't believe he did that, " sighs Zoe.
Julia stands up, " Ok I need to kick some jerk's ass, I'll be right back, " but Marlene takes her by the elbow to sit her right back on the couch.
" No one is going to kick anyone's ass, " adds Remus.
" For how long will Peter be in the hospital wing ? " asks Mary.
" He shouldn't stay for long, but I think Madam Pomfrey wants to be sure he is alright before he leaves, " answers James.
Zoe stands up, " I need to go for a walk. " And she leaves us without another word.
ZOE'S POV
I am looking for Regulus now. I need to talk to him about Severus' behavior. I enter in the library first. He is sitting on his chair, sipping black hot coffee, he looks up as he takes notice I am here while I say on the chair in front of him. My heart is beating with the run I just made and with the anger I am feeling.
" Regulus! What the hell is wrong with your friend? "
" Hello Mckinnon," he grins.I fold my arms.
" Sorry, what friend ? " He frowns.
" Snape, " I answer dryly
" He's not my friend! "
" Ok then, how do you feel about it ? "
" Like he didn't brag about it... "
" About what ? "
" He attacked Peter ! Because HE was a dick to Lily, and Slughorn told Peter to go sit with her instead of Snape, so NOW Peter is in the hospital wing ! "
Madam Pince glares at us. He grabs me kindly with the elbow and takes me outside of the library.
" Well ? " I ask.
" I don't know... "
I sigh.
" What do you want from me exactly, Zoe ? " he asks a raised eyebrow.
" I just..., I want your opinion about this. "
" Why is that ? "
" I just want to know. "
" Well, I don't have an opinion, but it's clear Snape shouldn't have done that. What do you expect for answer ? "
I sigh, " Look sometimes you're this guy I can trust. We can talk and having fun. And sometimes, you're just closing yourself up. Usually, I know what I can talk about with one people or another. What I cannot talk to them about. To know who they are within ? I usually have this ability and with you... it's just argh ! I can't ! I just can't ! I am just trying to understand you... who you really are... "
" It'd already be nice enough if I could understand who I am before being able to answer you, don't you think ? " he says in a sharp voice.
I didn't expected such a reaction. It frozens me. So he keeps speaking.
- Is it why you're here, then ? Just because you're curious about me, because I am the little curiosity of the moment Miss Mckinnon is trying to figure out ? Trying to understand, 'cuz that's what you like.Not because you care about Peter.
" I... It was because I care about Peter in the first place, and I wanted to talk to you about it. I don't know why, but when something happens I like to talk to you about it because you always have these interesting and well-thoughts answers... and it's just now that I realise that I don't know what I can talk to you about, what you care to talk about. "
" You don't deny I am just just a curiosity to you, then ? "
" I didn't know how to answer to that because it's utter bullshit ! I come talking to you because I care about you and I like your opinion about situations ! And you're nice to me and- look it's driving me crazy to not completely understand your personnality.
" Everything's not about you Mckinnon, just know that. See ya, " he concludes turning his back on me.
" Wait ! "
I am trying to keep up, but he keeps walking away from me.
" Don't turn your back on me ! "
" I should have turned my back on you weeks ago already ! We're not meant to know eachothers ! "
And just like that, I stop walking and I let him go. I feel my heart falling in my chest, shattering itself. Once he's really gone, I fall against the wall. I break down and start to cry. Why am I so nosy ? And selfish ? I didn't even think about how he would feel about what I said before saying it Why do I always have to figure everything out even if it can hurt people? Why have I done this ? Why am I so impulsive ? Why am I like this ?
I am tired, so tired. Of classes, of studying, of stressing for lives out there of people I know or don't. I just want to close my eyes and wake up in a hundred years when all of this is over. I want to wake up and be wiser, not this selfish, nosy teenage girl. I am sitting against the wall. I am overwhelmed by everything. The sun has set. It must be past 10pm. Little by little, I am crying myself to sleep, sitting against that wall of the library hallway.
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Liana is going to kill me for this but well-
I hope you guys enjoyed this angsty chapter anyways :D
I do not post as often as I used to I am sorry. My inspiration starts to lack.
Anyways, I hope everyone is good <3
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FanfictionThe marauders enter in their seventh year in Hogwarts. We can say that it's not going to be a peaceful one as The Dark Lord raises into power more and more every year. [ the marauders era's canon characters × my ocs × @iovelupin' s oc ]