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Big moves In baby steps

Jackson's P.O.V.:
Lil man is getting bigger. He wears 12 month jeans but he's only 6 months. But he a fly baby like his daddy tho. " Hey papa. Hey Cree " I said bouncing him up and down on my legs. " You hungry big boy " He started to whine so I toke that as a yes and put him in his bouncer to fix his bottle. Cree is really growing up. He don't even use his pacifier anymore. I gave him his bottle. India's at the gym shaping up and I don't have to work today. Cree looked sleepy so I took him up stairs to put him in his crib. India's momma babysits Cree when both of us work. Baby boy fell asleep.
3 hours later I heard loud crying. I ran up stairs. " Boy why you so loud " I picked him up and he felt wet. I put him on his changing table then toke his pants off. He didn't whine but he start kicking and scratching. " Ouch lil boy calm down " I put a fresh diaper on after the baby powder. " There you go Cree Cree " I put a extra outfit in his baby bag and went down stairs with it and him. " Cree wanna go to the park with daddy " I mean I know he don't understand and I sound hella stupid talking to him but I don't care. I buckled him in the range. I got in and turned the radio on. I looked in the mirror and Cree was dancing in a slump kicking his legs. " Go papa go papa go papa aye aye " He saw his daddy looking back and giggled. I pulled my phone out and tried to record him. I sent it to India saying 'Lil man got rhythm in his blood. Wonder where he got that from' then I posted it on Instagram and got likes and comments right then. I gave Cree my phone cause Indie was face timing. He might dropped it but whatever. (India) " Hey papa how mommas baby " He cheesed her to death then started screaming. " He want his momma baby " (India) " Momma coming Cree Cree " " Meet us at the park " (India) " Okay. Bye papa. Bye Jackson " She hung up. Cree just kept my phone. We got to the park, I took Cree out. We got to the swings. I put Cree in one and pushed him slow at first then I went fast when I saw he liked it. He laughed his ass off. I took pictures. India pulled up and came over. (India) " Hey mammas big boy " She pushed Cree a while. I took him out and we went to the slide. We went down together. India got a pic.

India's P.O.V.:
All of us went back home. I took Cree while Jackson went to go do whatever. (Jack) " Hey Indie I.." Before Jackson could make it up the steps he tried on the baby gate. I died laughing. " Cree yo daddy don't watch where he goes " (Jack) " India it won't even funny but I see how it is. You ain't right " He went up the stairs mad. " Awe " I laughed loud enough for him to hear it up there. I fed Cree. I played with him on the floor, crawling with him and trying to get him to stand up and take some steps early. I played in his now curly hair. " Where is daddy Cree " He started making noises like he wanted to talk but couldn't. " Papa what we gone do huh? " We went upstairs with daddy. " There go dada Cree" (Jack) " Hey man " Jackson was up here making calls. I took Cree back downstairs. " Cree you want cousin Elijah to come over. Let's go get all of us ice cream " Cree started crying. " Whats wrong baby " I got his bottle and bag then we got in the range. We went Insomnia cookies instead of Ice cream. We pulled up to Brody's casa.
" Elijah guess what " (Elijah) " What auntie tell me tell me " " I got you some cookies " Brody really mean mugged me then. He never wants Elijah to have sweets because sometimes she goes off the wall crazy but she eating these cookies today. (Brody) " She can't have but two " " Okay Brody " He might be my big head annoying brother but Elijah dad too so I gotta respect that. (Brody) " Cree come here to yo uncle Brody boy " Cree held his arms grabbing for Brody. Brody played with Cree but Cree smacked Brody in the face. (Brody) " Dang papa I'm sorry " I gave Cree a little piece of cookie. Cree got real happy. (Brody) " So you like that. You a lil fighter. Daddy better watch out. Where Jack at boskii " " He at home doing business stuff. He's helping produce a clothing line of different stuff on the side " (Brody) " Oh shit Jack expanding in the business world" " Wessup with you and those companies you owning " (Brody) " We doing good. Right now we just making sure what we investing in is making us the right amount of profit " " Brody I'm so proud of you. My big brother doing big things " (Elijah) " Hey papa " She played on the floor with Cree.
Me and Cree left. When we got back home It was getting late. I took Cree upstairs and washed him in his tub. I put on a diaper and just let him run naked. I went in my room with him. Jackson must've went out. I texted him.
Wifey: I went to Brody's. Im back though. You have to hit the studio or something ?
Hubby: No. Troy came over and wanted to go for drinks so..
Wifey: Oh tell Troy I said 'Hey boo thang'
Hubby: India you always tryin to flirt with Troy witcho yo pimpin ass lol ima tell him though. But you minez. All minez.
Wifey: You jelly? And don't be getting drunk.
Hubby: Nope and baby mama
Wifey: Keep on you won't be getting none
Hubby: You can't do that to a nigga
Wifey: Whatever boy.
Cree crawled up to me and wanted my phone. He almost threw my phone in the toilet last time so I barely let him see it. He started fussing throwing a fit. This little boy actually in the floor having a tantrum. I picked him up and he hit me on the arm. " Aye lil boy calm yo self down. You not getting my phone so stop " He just cried. Soon he was knocked out. I went up stairs and put him in his crib. I went in my room to lay down. I called my close model friend Honors.
I: Wessup boo how u doin
H: Girl I'm chilling laid back.
I: Girl me too. I just put the baby to bed
H: Awe I go to see my little Cree
I: He just like his dad, a mess
H: Speaking of Jackson where my buddy at?
I:He out with Troy
H: Oh young boy Troy. Girl I swear he hella fine.
I: Y'all need to hook up then. y'all's dark skin selves would be too cute
H: Oh look who got married and want to play matchmaker now.
I: Child you know you like you some Troy you ain't gotta lie Craig. Troy be watching you and yo cake too.
H: Ain't nobody worried bout Troy.
I: Right that's what they all say till y'all end up married.
H: you too much Indie. We gone hook up tho.
I: ooh let me get in on this girl.
Jackson walked in the house loud sounding drunk.
H: Is that my buddy?
I: Yea
Jackson came up stairs stumbling. He came in the room. (Jack) " Hang up the phone girl " He told me taking his shirt off. Out of nowhere he threw his phone and his shoes across the room. He went in the other part of the bedroom and sat on the sofa. By that time I had hung up. I got off the bed. I walked over to Jackson. He looked me directly in the eyes. " Jackson why " Thank god the baby's room is sound proof. He didn't say a word. I went up to him. " So you not gone talk. Wth wrong with you coming up in here throwing stuff " I got louder that time. (Jack) " India stop talking to me like you my mother cause you sure as hell ain't. So the fuck what I came in drunk. You pissing me off " He yelled. I know Jackson is bipolar but I barely give two right now. " Nigga you pissing me off. I really ain't got the patients for you right now and I might do things I regret so come to me with that bs another time " (Jack) " You not going no where sit yo ass down India " He yelled yanking me to his lap. He tried to kiss me but I pulled away resisting. " Jackson Nicholas Taylor get the fuck off of me. I swear if you do something else. Try me " I tried to walk away mad but he pulled the back of my waist to his front waist. I turned around and punched his bottom lip. He grabbed his lip then looked at his hand that had blood on it. I quickly saw what I did and started to cry pulling him to the bathroom sink with me. I grabbed a rag and ran it in some water then held it on his lip. " I'm sorry " His eyes turned from black to light brown. I moved the rag off his lip. He picked me up. (Jack) " I'm sorry India. I didn't mean anything I said. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings and get you mad. I shouldn't have came home drunk like this. Forgive me please " " Jackson I forgive you. I didn't help the fact you were already drunk. I'm sorry for putting my hands on you " (Jack) " India its okay " He carried me to the bed. He start kissing my neck but the baby monitor went off with Cree's crying. He went to get him.

Jackson's P.O.V.:
Me and India had a rough night.
I got up and showered/Hygiene then I went down stairs. Believe it or not I can cook but India is always willing to make me food so I don't turn down the offer. I got the eggs, bacon, cheese, seasonings, and pans out and went to work. I felt arms around my waist. A smile came across my face. " Good morning wifey " (India) " Good morning hubby " " Gimme kiss " I bent down and she gave me a nice kiss. I finish cooking and made me and her plates. We ate. (India) " Daddy this was good " " Thanks baby ". Cree started crying. I went to get him. I took him out his crib and into his bathroom. I put him in his tub and washed him. I put a white half-sleeve graphic tee on with some khaki's and his black and white vans (outfit in mm). I went down stairs and sat him on the floor. " Cree look up " I snapped to get his attention. I took a picture of Cree in his outfit playing with a cup. I was dressed in a black and white stussy tee with khakis and matching vans. India had on a black and white tight been trill shirt with tight khakis and all black Roshes. " Come on India what you doing ?" (India) " I'm coming don't rush " Me and Cree got in the Bugatti. India finally came out. (India) " When it comes to food you don't miss out do you ". " Hell yea " We made it to Mama Wells. She invited the whole family over for dinner. " Hey Kandi Wessup Jay " I gave dap. (Kandi) " Hey aunties pumpkin " She curved me and straight took Cree out my hands. " Well okay then " (Kandi) " Oh hey Jackson. How aunties baby doing huh? " She played with Cree. I think Cree a straight playa. He gets all the ladies and lil girls. Just the other day at the park he had two lil girls all in his face. He be stealing his mama from me too. Dude got everyone wrapped around his finger. India and Kandi went in the house with Cree. We just sat out here talking. (Jay) " How's married life ?"
" It's nice being able to wake up to India every morning but its also the worse when I did something she ain't gone like or she just got an attitude that day " (Jay) " Ion wanna rethink marrying Kandi the way you talking ". " Well you got to be ready to commit to everything that comes with Kandi. It ain't easy. I put that on life but I wouldn't chose to have it any other way with anyone else "

India's P.O.V.:
(Ma) " Hey boskii. How grandmas baby doing. Come to nana " She hugged me and took Cree. (Ma) " How you and Jackson going " " We have small bickers, sometimes we might get into a big fight about things. But we okay " (Ma) " India I am your mother. You can tell me anything ". " Yea I know " we ate a chilled then went home. I gave Cree to Jack, we both went up stairs but Jack went in Cree's room. I went in our bedroom and sat on the sofa just thinking. I didn't want to tell my mom about us so I didn't. Jackson came in (Jack) " Was on your mind baby ?" " Nothing " (Jack) " India I know you by now. so was on your mind " " Doesn't everybody now me. Think they do anyway " (Jack) " Where is this coming from " " You know I wanted to tell my mom about us and all that goes on. We can't just keep going on like nothing happen cause one day it'll all be too much " (Jack) " I know we need work and more abundance of love. Show me were to start. Teach me how to love you, only you truly know your self " He got down on his knees clinging to my waist pulling my shirt. Staying there for about a minuet, he broke down hysterically crying. Sobbing. For once I wasn't the only one crying. I could finally see he feels the same hurt I do and at that moment all of it was clear.
We can't live nor live without each other. We got to make this work for our son if not for us. " I love you Jackson but is it gonna be an us? I can't take the pain and I don't like what we go through " (Jack) " Baby I love you. I want to be one little family. You, me, and Cree. Don't you know your my life " We stayed up till morning just talking. We came to a compromise. If we can't fix us we'll try to do it with out us being together but still raising Cree. At first Jackson wasn't up for it but he gave in. I laid on his chest. I want my husband, the man I met and loved a few years ago.