Your friends stand next to you and I follow y'all. It's like a dream. I stare at you and them. You're way outta their league, you know? You look like a queen but they don't. You're royalty. They could be your butler.
One always notices when they're watched. And you have always been noticing way faster than others. You will look for me 'cause you will want to know who I am. Who loves you so much, who stalks you and you will be willing to tell me to leave you alone. But that's nothing. That doesn't matter to me, not at all, 'cause in the end, it's just you rejecting me a second time. I guess that's what I want. What I need. If you can't be here, if I can't be with you, maybe I need you to reject me so that I can finally end all of this. Half an hour ago, I was so unbelievably tired. Half a day ago, I was ready to end everything. You gave me strength. But not the good kind of strength. You gave me that kind of strength that destroys you if you aren't able to get your desire. You just gave me that kind of strength which simply kills me. You just killed me. Maybe I'm not dead yet. But I will be. And it's not gonna take a long time.
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Conto𝚍𝚎𝚏𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 - 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚊𝚌𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚊 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚠 You threw me out of a window. And I am falling. I am about to land. To break into thousands of pieces - again. HUGE TRIGGER WARNING suicide...
