Help- My Dreams~

fake friends-

You woke up almost everyday feeling horrible, blasting music to get away from the pain of everything and your thoughts.

Your friend that you thought was your friend (we will call her KR) KR was your best friend till she started lying more and more. She'd lie about pointless things than larger topics like rape, family problem, suicidal thoughts, and anxiety.

You hated her telling everyone about the fact "she was so sad" or she "had server anxiety" that you suffer from daily.

Your thoughts would range from who cares about me to let's end it all. Then a certain blond boy would pop into your head with his stupid fluffy hair that looked as soft as cotton and his eyes that anyone could drown into.

Not even knowing him, seeing a picture you would basically turn red at the mention.

Back to your friends, one was okay her name we will calllllllll 'M'

M was always there for you, and never told anything you said.

You told KR that you wanted to make a dude jealous to where he stopped liking you and stopped staring at you, but she went and told him, everything. Your sad thoughts, anything, the fact you had a girlfriend to him to where you had to break up with her so he didn't fight or over-sexualize your girlfriend.

Usually, someone liking you was great cause you hated how you looked and it proved someone cared. But this boy we will call D cause he's a dick, He's homophobic and transphobic, and a bit racist. He said the n-word causally and was barely a good enough friend.

You lived by the 'We are young ill never meet you again'/'We ant soulmates hun' move.

He was quite the opposite thought if he got into a relationship they were gonna get married and cried over the person. He and KR dated for a while which you didn't care about because you could almost always predict when he or any of your friends were gonna date at this point.

Right when they broke up he "started liking you", you didn't like them so when you went to tell him your social anxiety spiked and had to tell him over text and claim your parents didn't want you to date yet, but on a real not they didn't care.

Your mom and step-dad actually tested you about dating the boy you couldn't keep your eyes and mind off.

A/N The blond will be mention in a different chapter and it will also in My Dreams (btw its Toms if you haven't realized yet <3)

You always overthought things but you don't think that all this is overthinking talking.

You were having an anxiety attack hugging D when he said "You are so damn beautiful" now that would've been sweet but you were having an anxiety attack and told him about your suicidal thoughts through the song Ms. Wanna Die.

You also see him as just a friend, maybe even less.

You always had bad friends, they either turned on you or bring you down.

How would you help yourself if this was you?

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