A Poem for a Beginning
Thinking of the time I almost opened an account to start writing
Feeling anxious I stopped and thought it was time I was buying
Told myself to not fret for there will someday be a beginning
Yet I sit here wondering how I let time flee so easily feeling it was too tiring
Dreams shall be fulfilled or so I believed once wholeheartedly
Yet sitting here I smile shaking my head at my own stupidity
But even failure has a face
So why should I hide my shame
So here I am writing away what comes first to my mind
Without thinking who may crush me with their words like a buzzing fly
For now I know there is not much left to lose
For with this beginning I am letting myself choose
Choose to be bold and shameless
To shine with my own grace
It is myself I have to sustain
Not the world that gives me nothing but pain
It is a medium for me to vent and express
This is where I will be when I get all stressed
Stressed of life and of failures
Of heartbreaks and awful behaviours
It is a beginning after an end
It is the feeling of a beginner who doesn't know how to pretend
One who wants to live even when there's nothing that gives her peace
One who wants to write for it is the only thing for her left with some bliss
