I want to take a breather
Enjoy a day without worries
Without deadlines and penalties
Without typing 'Hope this email finds you well'
Without staying up late preparing for the next meeting
Without having to think of how much my anxiety is building
I want to be able to write while listening to music
To feel the words of the song and not just wear headphones out of habit
To be able to think without fretting
To stop fearing the smallest difficulties
But the breather never comes
The relief never knocks on my door
The peace never chooses me to haunt
The sky never clears for me
For me it is always rushing and failing
Always living without truly breathing
