roommates, not lovers

four

"oh my god!" vinny exclaimed.  "what happened?  you have to tell me everything!"

"well i went into his room to tell him to clean his stuff up because he on purpose leaves it out.  but anyways, he just like grabbed me, and yeah, we fucked." ricky said in a rush.

"well was it good at least?"

"um yes, very much so but then he said to get out right after so i don't know what his problem is." ricky said.  he had calmed down from his crying, his sadness now turned into mostly annoyance and anger towards the older man.

"how big was it?" vinny asked.

ricky blushed, even though no one could see him.  "i don't know, but really big."

"maybe go try and talk to him?  most people aren't mean after they fuck.  maybe he thought you didn't like it and was embarrassed or something." vinny suggested.

"absolutely not.  he was a jerk, i'm not talking to him." ricky said.  "and ryan comes back tomorrow!  i'm supposed to go out with him."

"damn, ricky.  are you going to tell him?"

"no.  there's no reason to, and i don't want to ruin something good just because of this.  it's not like it's going to happen again."

"you do like chris!" vinny shouted over the phone. 

"ew, no i don't!  it was a one time thing, i swear." ricky said in a hushed voice, he didn't want chris to hear what he was talking about.

"yeah, mhm.  ricky and his two boyfriends." vinny sing songed. 

"so gross, chris is disgusting and i'm mad at him right now." ricky said.  "ryan wants to call me, i talk to you later."

"okay, bye hoe."

ricky rolled his eyes.  "bye, vin." he said and hung up, sending ryan a text saying that he could call now.

ricky answered the call immediately, feeling an over whelming wave of guilt and sadness when he heard ryan's cheerful voice.

"hey, ryan!" ricky said, trying his best to sound happy. 

"so good news, i'm actually coming back today!  my schedule somehow got messed up, but i can see you today!" ryan said.  "are you still up for a date night?"

"yes!  what time will you be here?" ricky asked.

"about four o'clock, if we're on time.  four thirty if we're running late but i'll let you know." ryan said. "did you still want to go to the park and then back to your place?"

ricky smiled and nodded.  "yeah!  i really can't wait to finally see you."

"i can't wait either, babe.  but i gotta go, we're about to hit the road.  i'll text you though." he said.

"okay, just tell me when you're about to be here." ricky said. 

ryan laughed.  "alright, i will.  bye, ricky."

"bye, ryan." ricky hung up, his sadness now replaced with excitement to see his potential boyfriend.  he checked the time, seeing it was only eleven, and he still had plenty of time to get ready for the day. 

ricky unlocked his door, peaking around the corner to make sure chris wasn't around and went to the bathroom, starting the shower. 

-

chris lay in his bed, sweaty and tired.  he was mad, at himself and kind of confused as to what he had just done.  he had fucked ricky, his roommate who happened to be a boy.  he had never had any sexual experiences with men, only women. 

the man couldn't deny that he was in fact attracted to ricky, the boy was small and delicate and had long hair, and small, doll like features.  he was pretty, and he felt soft and small under chris. 

deep down chris knew that he had hurt rickys feeling by kicking him out immediately after they were done, but there was also a part of him that didn't care about the boys feeling at all. 

he had always known that he was at least attracted to other men, but he had never thought that he would be sexually involved with one, and the thought was scary to him.

he heard the shower turn on, knowing it was ricky. chris got up, putting on his clothes and getting his keys and wallet to go out. he didn't want to be in the house when ricky got and risk an awkward conversation.

he left the apartment, locking the door and going to his car. he wasn't sure where he was going to go just yet, but he knew that he wanted to bring someone back to his apartment with him, specifically a girl.

-

ricky got out of the shower, wrapping the fluffy towel around his chest and going to his room. he laid on his bed for a while, not wanting to get up and ready just yet.

he still had a few hours until ryan was supposed to be there, so he didn't feel the need to rush too much. ricky turned on his tv, needing some sort of background noise for distraction so he didn't get too caught up with thoughts of chris and what had happened earlier.

the boy finally stood up from his bed, stretching a bit and going to his closet to pick out his outfit for his date with ryan.

he assumed ryan would dress pretty causal, and it was still a bit chilly outside, so he chose black skinny jeans, and a light grey sweater. it was simple, but it was cute and comfortable.

ricky put on his clothes, plugging in his hair dryer and straightener to do his hair. he didn't normally do his hair that often, but first impressions did count and he wanted to look his best for his first time meeting ryan.

he dried and straightened his hair, starting on his makeup.  he used a fluffy brush to put his black eyeshadow around his eyes, then adding his black eyeliner and mascara.  he liked the way it looked on him, he thought it made his eyes look larger and more blue. 

the boy checked the time on his phone, seeing that it was already three.  he went out of his room and to the kitchen to feed his cats before he left, seeing that chris had left.  ricky hoped that chris would stay away from the apartment for a while, he was still mad and upset with the older man. 

rickys phone dinged and he looked down, seeing that ryan was now on his way over.  he smiled, looking at himself in his mirror to make sure he looked good.  ricky wanted to look and feel his best for tonight. 

he began to get butterflies in his tummy, he was so nervous to meet ryan!  ricky had gone on quite a few dates before, but it just felt different to him this time.  maybe if was because of his situation with chris, or maybe it was just because he seemed to care about ryan more.  either way, ricky knew that he wouldn't really be able to calm himself down for a while. 

rickys heart seemed to skip a nest when he looked down at his phone and saw an 'i'm here' text from ryan, he looked at himself one last time in the mirror before he grabbed his keys and wallet, locking the door and going out to meet his maybe, possible boyfriend.