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13. thanks for nothing motherfcker

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Previously

Y/N looks to him with wide eyes. She looks forward again and bites the inside of her cheek, "Okay..."

Bokuto still hears doubt in her voice and he whispers, "They're someplace better," confidentially."Okay."
Red is not a color Y/N wants to see so much of ever again.

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"i think we could help each other fight our inner demons"

wait
what

no, we're not doing this again
i refuse to do this again
not with another person
i thought that you weren't going to

you're an adult for fucks sake

get it together

i'm not qualified to help you fix your problems
i have problems too
i̶'̶m̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶a̶ ̶f̶u̶c̶k̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶k̶i̶d̶

don't act like you're qualified either

don't act like you really know me

y̶o̶u̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶e̶v̶e̶n̶ ̶r̶e̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶f̶u̶c̶k̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶m̶e̶

you don't know anything

you think you have good intentions

but did you stop and think about how you were hurting me?
how your hands were clenched so deeply into my heart?
how sharp you're nails were when i started to b̶l̶e̶e̶d̶?

all the sudden you have a problem
all the sudden you remember my name

s̶h̶u̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶f̶u̶c̶k̶ ̶u̶p̶

leave me alone

i̶ ̶h̶a̶t̶e̶ ̶p̶e̶o̶p̶l̶e̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶

don't drag me into your s̶h̶i̶t̶
and say we should talk and s̶h̶i̶t̶
when i know you don't give a s̶h̶i̶t̶
about my  s̶h̶i̶t̶t̶y̶  problems
and ultimately,
you're just

f̶u̶c̶k̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶u̶s̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶ ̶m̶e̶

i was just a kid

i was just a kidi̶'̶m̶ ̶s̶t̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶a̶ ̶k̶i̶d̶

are you proud of yourself?

thanks for nothing

i̶ ̶h̶a̶t̶e̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶

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A teen sits in a blank room, looking through a beat-up notebook. She closes the notebook and looks at the front. On the front of the cover, it says: No. 0143. Though it's scratched out, and there are messy stars drawn all over it.