A/N I wrote this one and it is quite sad, and it is shorter than the others. If you don't like reading sad things, don't read it!!!
Suicide note.
Dear my Phil,
I am sorry that I have to leave. I love you but I know you won't ever love me back. I have known you for only a short time, but it feels like I have known you all my life.
I won't be coming back. Don't feel like it is your fault. If it is anybody's fault, it is mine. You tried to help me through it, but I couldn't hold out any longer. I want you to remember all the memories we ever had together. All the good times. All the bad times. Every memory we ever shared.
But most of all, I want you to remember this. Even if you don't feel the same way, it doesn't matter any more. I won't be around to hear you say it. I want you to know that I have always loved you. I love your pale skin and your blue eyes. I love your ebony hair and your childlike personality. I love your ability to cheer me up. But now it isn't enough. I can't hold on any longer and I want it to end. I know I am being selfish, but can't I be selfish for this one time. I won't ever be selfish ever again.
People start to listen when you aren't there.
Hopefully you will listen to me too.
It will be quick.
I love you Phillip Lester. I hope you'll love me too.
Goodbye.
