(Discontinued) A Love As Auld As Time-Countryhumans

A Small Holiday

Just a little authors note while I remember to say: A countries ideas and way of thinking being changed by the people in that country depends on the countries government. Democracy means all the people of the country, not just government; while dictatorship means the government's and/or leader's influence. Of course, those aren't the only things but that's just the basis.

Hope you enjoy!

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I don't think there has been a single night that I've not had an entire conversation to myself in the dark before going to sleep.
It's like an unsuccessful vent.

It's difficult to get something off your mind when you really like it.
In my case, I really like my crush and it's causing me a fair few problems.

I've never been too good with the feeling of love, although that sounds kinda dumb. I've just never seen it as important, with the amount of conflict there was growing up as a country, it only seemed like something that would distract you and something that someone else could certainly take advantage of. I never really thought of it until meeting her, to which the feeling quite uncontrollably developed.

After leaving her to some extent when the union happened, the thought of the feeling gradually left again. It was a random pop up of memories that's just suddenly brought it back.

I've been asking the same questions to myself for a whole week now: would she even remember? Will it only lead to rejection? How would I even begin to describe how I feel?
Stuff like that.

There was a very obvious problem blocking me from having any of those questions answered and that was the fact that I'm stuck on this island.

I could visit her, but I'm not allowed without permission. It's like being a grounded teenager; I'm not allowed to leave unless UK says so or it's super important.
UK is sort of a parental figure (definitely likes to act like one) but that's only because they are the one that's mainly in charge. They have the biggest say in decisions for the country. Most of the time.

So when I'm told they're allowing me to go on one of their business trips off the island with them, I'm greatly confused.

However, it didn't take long to find the reason after having a conversation with Wales in which they couldn't help but ask me about it in an obvious 'I was the one that did it' way. I should of probably seen that from a mile away, and I wish I did because maybe then I would of been able to give a proper response rather than an awkward and questioning 'Thank you...?'

Luckily, she understood that I'm just not great at thanking people for things.
I don't like thanking people in the fact that it feels like I owe them something, like a favour.

But it's Wales, and they're my good friend so I can get behind owing her a favour.

What's funny with the next two days (UK didn't really give me much time and warning) is that I'm besides myself with nerves. It's funny because I'm always going on about leaving the island - having a bit of freedom for a week or so. But now, I'm so scared about the trip. I can't help but keep myself up late thinking about everything that could go wrong.

There's a lot of stuff that could go wrong...

But I have no time to think about what could go wrong when on my way to the country.

Me and UK say goodbye to England, Wales, and Northern Ireland - who had traveled all the way down just to stay for a while. I'm happy to know that by the time the businesses trip is over Northern Ireland will still be in England. We meet up often, but haven't for a bit recently, so if everything does go wrong on this trip at least there will be something positive to push it all away when I get back. At least I hope the trip won't go wrong.