Both Feet On The Edge

Chapter 3

Trigger warning: Thoughts of suicide and mentions of  eating disorders more specifically anorexia. 

Peter woke up the next morning at around 5 am. By the time he was finished taking a shower and getting ready for school it was about 6 am. He needed to eat and he knew that, but couldn't bring himself to take a bite or eat anything. The last time he had had a full meal was almost four months ago. Whenever he did have to eat, usually due to the concern of the orphanage keeper Mrs. Claudeen, he would take small bites and never finish the whole plate of food.

He walked down the stairs at about 6:15 am. He saw Mrs. Claudeen making breakfast for all the children. She was abusive from time to time, sure, but she had one heck of a heart and cooked a mean ham and cheese omelet.

Claudeen greeted Peter with a warm but concerned smile as she looked down at his hoodie seeing as it seemed to hang loosely on his body along with the pair of skinny jeans he was wearing.

Peter smiled at her with an unknown excitement, but also had this empty look mixed with it.

Claudeen placed an omelet in front of Peter and told him to eat up. He responded with a slight smile and a little nod waiting for her to turn around before he touched the food in front of him.

He was about to take a bite when the voices appeared and started whispering in his ears clouding his thoughts with lies and falsehoods.

"Fat"

"Ugly"

"Chubby"

"Stick man"

"Worthless"

"If you eat then you will be even fatter than before.."

"Stupid"

"Small bites"

"Don't eat"

He tried to push the thoughts out but failed to his dismay. He knew he needed to eat, but he agreed with the voices. He didn't know how to push them out either. Thoughts swarmed his head as he took a bite of the omelet.

Flavor exploded in his mouth and he felt himself start to shovel small bites into his mouth. After at least a solid 8 bites he put the rest of the omelet and said goodbye to Mrs. Claudeen before grabbing his bookbag and heading off to school.

When he got to school it was around 7:15 school started at 8:10 so he had more than enough time to go to his locker and talk to Ned and MJ. After grabbing his books from his locker he met up with Ned and they talked about meeting up after school to work on a lego set they had been building. The bell rang and they headed for class.

The day went on smoothly, Flash didn't pick on him too much and they had light homework that night. After classes Peter walked to Ned's house accompanied by Ned himself. They did their homework together and began to build the lego set they had been talking about. They were about half way through when Peter got a notification on his phone reminding him that he had to start patrolling at about 6:30 pm. It was 5:30 pm already and so he brushed the reminder off and continued to work on the lego. At 6:30 he left Ned's house and began patrolling Queens.

It was 8:30 pm and Peter was sitting on the top of a building just chilling when he looked down at the ground only now realizing how high up he was.

What would happen if I just fell and didn't pull myself up? he wondered.

What would happen?

Does it matter?

Would anyone miss me?

Peter's thought had taken a dark turn and he was beginning to consider jumping. Just then Karen the AI in his suit started talking.

"Peter you need to be home by 10:30 P.M. It is currently 9:55 P.M. The fastest route from here takes 15 minutes. You should arrive at 10:20 P.M."

This snapped Peter back into reality as he began to swing in the direction of the Orphanage, taking the route that Karen had been talking about.

He arrived back home at 10:20 just as Karen had said he would. He walked inside and went up to his room, took a shower, put PJ's on and jumped into his bed. Slowly drifting into blackness unaware of the events that would occur during the night. 

Two chapters in one night! EPIC! Hello everyone and they you for reading this chapter. In chapter five there will be some wonderful angst! Also If it isn't too much to ask, could you people please comment on something? I enjoy reading comments and getting feedback from other people on my writing. Just tell me your opinion on how this book is so far, if you want me to include anything in any of the upcoming chapters, or if you don't want to do that just say a random word, start a conversation, or put an emoji. I will most likely respond to your comments too. I also want to say thank you for 15 reads I really appreciate it! Any ways that's all for now, see you in the next chapter!

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