Her Silent Scream

Chapter 1

2/18

     Dear Diary, I cant take this very much longer everything is falling apart. My boyfriend broke up with me. I know it seems stupid to be sad over some guy but it hurts, he is the longest relationship i've ever had, but thats not all my step dad and mom split again. Moms in collage. I have 2 sisters. Savanah whos is about to turn 6 and Eleora who is 2 months old. I am not a normal child. I am a mom but not biologicly nor by choice. Im raising my two sisters. Since i began 6th grade i have non-stop gotten bullied. For some reason people find it amuzing to see me cry and break. I dont do it very often but when i do its bad. Last night i stayed the night at my friends and i found out she cut. I asked her why? Why would you do that to yourself? Well i see how people treat her so i understood why. Today when i got home i just got back from buying dinner. Mom left with the girls i ended up accidentlly knocked over a wine glass. I broke down and started screaming. I hate myself i cant do this any more. Instead of picking up the glass i found the sharpest glass and began cutting my arms. It felt like a relife. I felt all my screams let go through the cuts i was bleeding for 5 mins and then i wiped up my blood i just picked up the glass threw it away finished un packing stuff for dinner and began cooking and then set the table. My mom finally got home. I feed my mom and sisters. Mom went down to the basement to do collage i wont see her till i bring the baby down in the morning before i leave for school. I put the girls to bed. Took a shower and i began to silently cry and here i am now writting. Woundering why is this happening to me. I have all this stress that i shouldnt even have. Well Eleora woke up i guess i need to get her a bottle and try to sleep only 3 more hours till school.

          Love, K.K