WAS IT LOVE? 2

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Part 1

Dear Diary,

3:45 AM

It's me Seojun. I know it sounds crazy. But Yes I am going to be 15 by this month. Yeah, a teenager of course. We have everything we wanted. Mom loves me a lot and so did dad.

Well, I have made a few friends. I am not all alone. But I don't know whether I should trust them or not. It's so hard for me to trust anyone. But they seem loyal to me. And nice too.

Also, I met a crazy girl. "crazy" is enough for me to describe her. But deep down I feel she is hiding something. She reminds me of my past self. No friends, mama's boy. I still am my Mom's boy.

The worst is that I had a mother to raise me but she doesn't have anyone. Stays alone, no friends. So even in breaks, she had nowhere to go. Stays in the hostel. I feel bad for her. Guess I will make her my friend, someday.

Well, I also have to visit a psychiatrist too. Not a thing to laugh about. But yeah mentally ill. Depressed and happy at the same time. Things just don't go as they are planned to be. Just like I have to lose everything that precious to me.

About mom, she is not normal anymore. It's like I have lost that happy soul who used to find joy in everything. I miss the old her. But can't blame her. I don't know why always God punished us especially her.

She doesn't talk that much, barely eats and is going through a mental disease called Schizophrenia. (if you don't know then google it)

Grandpa is in Coma, I have to visit him every Sunday also Great Grandma too. (she is the person who helped Seojun to kidnapped Yunho in S1. She is San's grandma.) My family is just broken into pieces.

I stay in a hostel. Visit them twice a week. Mom just put me in a hostel because she just gave up. Gave up on everything. She believes that she can't raise me properly. I need full of attention and love that she can't give.

I thought Uncle Yunho will help us but he just left us like that. He just disappeared from our life. We just don't know where he has been. No contacts, nothing.

He was the person who taught me soccer. Gave me hopes that even without a leg I can play, achieve my dream. I want to be an international soccer player. With or without a leg I will become one. It was dad's wish too.

I guess I will have to find Uncle Yunho. Cause he is the only one who can help us, help Mom. So there we start the journey of finding him. Uncle Yunho, my friend.

It's going to 3:00 AM soon so I guess I should go to sleep now.

Goodnight