The Girl Next Door (AOT/SNK ~ Eremin Fanfiction)

Chapter 9 ~ Forgiveness

Mikasa wasn't at school that day. I started to get worried when she wasn't even home when I got home; but then mum told me she had gone to Annie's for the night. She was probably so pissed with me...

I didn't get much sleep that night. The guilt of Mikasa, plus the jealousy of Marco and every feeling possible towards Armin was keeping me up.

I really needed to apologise to Mikasa before it was too late. Whether she accepted it or not she needed to hear my apology because I started to realise how terrible I really was being to her. Her own brother, treating her like an outcast because of a decision she made that wasn't bad at all; that's just plain disgusting.

Then with the Marco and Armin situation... I couldn't help but feel a burning hatred for Marco but at the same time I felt bad for hating him. I guess it's not his fault that he's a better friend to Armin than I am, it's mine. But then again, I was trying pretty hard to get Armin's attention but she was too busy with Marco to see it, so technically it is his fault.

Eren, you're such a child.

I sighed to myself and turned in bed, closing my eyes and trying to sleep again but thoughts of Armin invaded my mind. I had to apologise to her too. Heck, I might as well just apologise to the world for existing.

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I crept down the hallway towards Mikasa's room, making sure not to wake anyone.

It was 4am after all.

I had heard Mikasa come home at around 3am. I'm not sure why she came home so early. I was expecting her to go to school the next day with Annie, but I guess not. I quietly opened Mikasa's bedroom door and heard her softly snoring on the other side of the room. As I approached her bed, I tripped over her school bag and let out a tiny squeal, falling ontop of Mikasa.

"WHAT-" She jolted upwards.

"SHHHH!!" I placed a finger against her lips. I saw her give me the most digusted yet amused look on her face in the dark which almost made me laugh.

"Eren, what the fuck are you doing it's like 3am!" She hissed.

"I'D JUST LIKE TO SAY-" I whisper-yelled. "THAT I AM SORRY AND I'M A DICK AND I REALLY DO THINK YOU AND ANNIE ARE GREAT TOGETHER AND IM A DICK AND-"

"Are you high?" She held back laughter.

"NO I'M NOT HIGH I JUST HAVEN'T SLEPT AND I RANDOMLY HAVE A BURST OF ENERGY AND I FEEL LIKE I'M GUNNA DIE. PLEASE ACCEPT MY APOLOGY, I LOVE YOU." I shook her shoulders.

"Okay, okay!! I accept your apology now go the fuck to sleep you idiot!!" She laughed and pushed me off her bed.

I scampered out of her room like a scared puppy and closed the door behind me, letting out a sigh of relief.

One down, another to go.

I decided I wouldn't be able to sleep so I went to my room to get dressed for school. I had nothing better to do anyway. I flipped the lights on in my room and closed the door behind me, walking to my desk to check my phone quickly. I noticed out my window, Armin's bedroom light also seemed to be on. Why was she awake so early?

'Are you awake?' I sent a message to Armin. Almost immediately, she had read the message.

'Why are you awake? - Armin'

'Couldn't sleep. How bout you? - You'

'Same - Armin'

'I need to talk to you - You'

'Hi - Armin'

'I mean face to face - You'

'...Now? - Armin'

'Well not nessesarily but if you want...? - You'

'I'm going out - Armin'

'Comin XD - You'

I rushed out of my room and downstairs, flinging the front door open and closing it as quietly as possible. I walked to my front gate and saw Armin walk out her own front door.

"Hey." She smiled, her smile looking as bright as ever even in the street lights.

"Hey." I returned the smile.

"Is there something wrong?" She asked, lowering her voice a little.

"I wanted to apologise for the other day..." I rubbed the back of my neck. "It was-"

"No, I want to apologise. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and I'm sorry I didn't respect that." Armin sighed.

"Armin, stop." I frowned. "You don't need to apologise at all, my opinion wasn't even... Look, I listened to what you said and I realised how stupid I was. I'm really sorry for acting so disgusting." I kicked the brick fence beside me and mumbled under my breath.

"I'm actually kind of glad you changed your mind." She giggled.

"Why?" I smiled, happy that she was happy.

"I just didn't think I could be friends with someone who thought something like that..." She mumbled. "Not to be rude but; someone with that kind of opinion must not be a very good person."

I nodded. "Again, I'm sorry and I don't think that anymore." I smiled. I didn't exactly in the first place but anyways...

"What do you think then?" She asked.

That was a good question.

"Well..." I trailed off. What did I think? It took me a few full seconds to actually figure out my own feelings and opinion. The whole thing hurt my brain. It was stupid of me to base my opinion on one person I knew, so I knew what my final choice was.

"I don't care anymore." I said. "It doesn't matter who they love... As long as they are happy."

Armin smiled. "Now that's a good opinion."

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