Rivilis Amiculus

A/N: A sad announcement

Hey, this is a message that saddens me to make but I feel like I owe you all an explanation.

So it took me a year and three months to finish the last chapter of Rivilis Amiculus and I have to confess, I haven't gotten started on the next chapter yet. My passion for this fanfic has been fizzling out for a while now for two main reasons.

1: I am very disappointed in JK R*wl*ng and my love for Harry Potter has just faded over the years. We can pretend she doesn't exist as much as we want, but every time I say I am in the Harry Potter fandom, that woman sits in the back of my head and I don't want to be associated with her.

2: It's really sad to say but, I'm not in love with Attack on Titan anymore either... I haven't watched a single episode of season 4, nor have I listened to the opening theme for the new season, I haven't kept up with the manga, and I just had this sad realization the day I published the chapter. I really just sat there and thought and I realized, I really don't love Attack on Titan like I used to. I thought of the hypothetical situation: If Armin, (my favorite character of the whole series, who was my comfort character all through middle school and in the deepest points of my depression) dies before the conclusion of the manga, I'm probably going to say "Awww that's a shame." Rather than have a month long mourning period that I was ready to have when Levi had to decide who to use the spinal fluid on.

I'd also like to address what the AoT fandom has become. I'm lucky enough that my work has never been pointlessly attacked for the fact that I ship certain ships, but lots of other creators have been, and it's gotten pretty toxic. I'm not saying if you're still into Attack on Titan, that you're a toxic person. Absolutely not. The small community I have who read my work have been the kindest people I've ever met and I can't thank you guys enough. However, there are other parts of the fandom that you have to admit is pretty toxic. I just can't enjoy the good parts of the fandom without seeing the bad.

But what upsets me even more than all of these things, is that by discontinuing this story, I feel like I'm leaving so many of you guys hanging on such a painful slow burn. I've been dragging this on for two years and to stop before the big payoff of the end, I feel awful.

I really don't want to discontinue Rivilis Amiculus. Even though my inspiration has been gone for months and writing for this story feels like a chore, I still don't want to let go of it for this reason. I don't want to let you guys down...

I really want to be able to say "Im not completely discontinuing this. I'll work on it here and there." But I really don't see myself wanting to work on this anymore.

I'm really sorry it's come to this. I did have a plan for every year of Armin's education at Hogwarts. So I can give you all a timeline of the events and if you really want to see some scenes written out, I can try my best to deliver something you'd like. It's the least I can do. Let me know if that's something you'd like. I'll make the timeline if people want to see it.

With that said, even though I've just said I don't see myself working on this anymore, I can't bring myself to say this is discontinued. With all my other discontinued works, I was ready to let go of them, but even though my inspiration and passion for this isn't there anymore, I'm not ready to let go.

But I will be honest: I'm probably not going to work on this anymore unless certain scenes are requested. I can't make any promises about those either, but I can try.

Again, I'm really sorry it came to this. I hope you can forgive me.