Ella

Chapter 5

I honestly don't know what to do at this point. How does he go to bed at night thinking what he's doing is okay? How can he look in the mirror at himself and say that I'm a good man? This isn't okay. But he is a powerful man and if I say something they will think I'm lying. So what am I supposed to do at this point? Will I be stuck here forever? Is there any hope for me at all? Will I get justice for what has happened to me ever? I pray everynight to break free fom this place. And I'm working hard to be the best that I can for everyone. And I'm gonna keep doing my best no matter what it takes.

Today is finally friday and James is back on a business trip so I get some free time away from him. Me and Grace decided to make plans after school. We are going shopping and we might go to the club. Michael has been really nice to me lately but I'm still going to have my guard up because you never know. And there's this girl named Evelyn. She's like a bad girl and she has been telling me to stay away from Michael or she will beat my ass. I think she is Michael's girlfriend or something but I feel the need to say something to Michael about it because I did nothing wrong. Tutoring is going good but for now at least. There will be some days he will pay attention and some days he won't. I don't think he will finish school at the rate he's going but I have faith in him that he could finish. But it'll take some time.

School is now over and I'm on my way home so that I can get ready to go out with Grace. "Yes! Thank god my mom isn't here right now." I need to hurry up and change and grab a few things before my mom gets home. I wanna be gone by the time she gets here if she even comes home tonight. Me and Grace met up at the mall and we are now shopping to go to the club because Grace has been wanting to go wih me so I said yes. So we picked a few outfits and we tried them on and we fell in love with the ones we picked out so we bought all of the ones we tried on. Now we are going to Grace's house to get ready and we are gonna head to the club. We are at the club and I look over to my left and there I see Michael. And he is staring at me like he's hungry. Now he's walking towards and I start to get a little nervous. "Hey, what are you doing here?" "Just here with my friend Grace hanging out. What are you doing here?" He laughs. "Just hanging out. Do you wanna dance with me?" I had to think about it for a second. I gave him a smile. "Sure." Now we are on the dance floor and he is very close to me and it's actually comforting. He makes me feel safe when I'm around him. But I could never tell him that. The night was amazing all of us drinking, dancing, and just having a good time like we should do when you are young. 

All this time I thought that he was a horrible person, but I guess you don't know somebody until you actually get to know them. The way he treated me before was horrible but I guess I forgave him because I understand him. I sense the pain he has but doesn't like to talk about it. But I understand him. After a couple more hours of dancing and drinking he wanted to walk me home and I agreed. On our walk home he decided to make conversation. "You know you're beautiful when you're drunk." "And you're charming as ever." We both laughed so hard we started snorting. And it was the most amazing feeling and time ever. So we arrived at my house and we said our goodbyes and then I went inside. When I waked in all I felt was the silence in the whole house. But for me that was good. It meant that my mother was gone and I would have the whole house to myself for a couple of days because that's how my mother was. She's more worried about having sex, drinking, and partying instead of worrying or loving her own daughter. But it's okay because one day I WILL leave this place and never look back. So I go upstairs and I get ready for bed I decided to call Grace to make sure she got home safely. "Hey! Are you home?" "Yes!! I had the most amazing night ever we should do it again sometime." "Most definitely! I had a really great time to. But we should get some sleep it's been a long night lol." "Yes it has lol. Alright girl, well goodnight and tomorrow tell me everything that happened with you and Michael." "Girl nothing like that happened he just walked me home lol. But I'll tell you what happened tomorrow lol. Goodnight." "Lol. Goodnight." 

So I wake up the next morning feeling good about myself and I for once have a smile on my face. I get up and get dressed and I make my self some breakfast. Then I hear the doorbell ring. "Who's here I just sat down to eat." I go over to answer the door and look who it is. "Hello love." It's Michael. "You just interrupted my breakfast time lol." "I'm sorry love but I wanted to come by to spend some time with if that's alright with you." "Oh ummm... Sure that's fine just not here because I don't know when my mother will be back. Especially no boys lol." He chuckles. "I don't mind where we go as long as we are having fun I don't mind." "Alright let me go grab my stuff and we can leave. But we have to go eat first since I didn't get a chance to eat my breakfast." I laughed. "Alright where would you like to go?" "Anywhere it doesn't matter I just need a little something in my system and then I'll be good." I grabbed my stuff and we headed out. We went and grabbed a little something to eat and he wanted to take me somewhere but he won't tell me. So we are on our way to this special place that he wants to show me. He brings me to this tall building and we are on a rooftop and we are looking at this beautiful view and the breeze is just so perfect and cozy. "Oh my God, this is so amazing. It's so peaceful and beautiful. I could literally sleep here lol." "That's why I brought you here. It's special to me but I know that it would be very special to you too. Maybe this could be our special spot together. Where we could hangout, talk, and to just be there for each other." There was a long pause after that. It looked like he was trying to find the words to tell me something but I don't know what's on his mind right now. "Are you okay?" "I..... just really want to apologize for the way I've treated you. No one should be treated like that and I still feel bad for it all I just really want you to really forgive....""Shhhhh... It's okay I forgave you because I know that really wasn't you in the inside. I know you're better than that. It's okay. I promise you that its okay. We are in a better place now. We are friends and we are okay and that's all that matters right now. And to just be there for each other no matter what we are both going through and that's a promise." "I will always be here for you no matter what and that is my promise to you." He comes close to me and we both hug each other and we sit down and watch the sunset together. We stayed like that for a while and I fell asleep. It started to get a little chilly out so he took his jacket off and wrapped it around me. And he held me like no one has ever done before. I could stay like this with him for eternity if I could. Maybe one day.....