New Beginnings [Harry Styles FanFiction]

3 words on Paper

Mehh, this isn't my favourite chapter...

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Ileft Anne’s the next day, I didn’t tell her why. I just said I needed to get home.

I moved school, to a crummy one down the road, but what did it matter? Nothing mattered anymore. My life had lost all meaning. I don’t even know why I was staying alive anymore. I stopped eating, stopped talking, and stopped living to be honest.

The only thing I took interest in was song writing. That’s what I did with my bottled up feelings, I wrote them down on paper.

And then the time came round where I had to take my A-levels at college. By that time, I was completely deflated, skinny and ill. I gave it all up, everything I had ever been good at. I chucked all my talent away and worst of all, I had a little voice of my Granddad in my head telling me how disappointed he was in me.

But that didn’t matter.

Nothing did.

One day I made up my mind that I wanted to quit school, half way through my A-levels. 

I couldn't think twice about doing this...

I just decided to leave school.

My mum probably took this the worst way possible. 

She screamed, she shouted, she cried, she ignored me for days. 

But i didn't care. 

I was almost 17. But in my mum's eyes i was still a little fragile girl, I needed to show her that I was independant and that i didnt need her in my life. 

That's when i decided to leave home.

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I packed up 3 full suitcases which literally contained my life and I went. I wrote 3 words on paper before i left:

Hate to Disappoint 

I thought about writing something nice like: I love you or something, but I knew it would make leaving home easier for both me and my mum if I acted like i hated her. 

I didn't, of course i didn't. I just needed to leave the nest I had lived in for so long, I needed to leave all the memories both bad and good behind.

I needed to start a fresh. 

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If the city never sleeps then that makes two

London was the only option I had for now, it was the centre of everything, I was so naive in thinking that someone might offer me a job and that I'd earn a fortune and be rich forever. But my realisations were ruined too quickly. 

It was 9 pm when I left Brighton. The train journey was long, and depressing, and tiring and lonely. 

I missed the company of my mum, her jokes, her love, how much she cared about me.

I missed my baby sister Annie too, she was always the perfect one of the two, so young, so innocent, so loving (despite her constant attempts to hurt me).

I arrived in London around 1am. It was cold, dark and rainy. I guess that's nothing new for England, but it felt so much colder and darker and rainier than ever before. 

I barely knew my way around London. All I knew was that my dad lived here.

And so did Harry, for now. I dont know long he'd be around though because it was the xfactor final tomorrow evening...so if they didn't win he'd probably be heading home. 

I had three options on where to go...

Harry's X-factor place (I didn't know where on earth that was)

The streets of London

Dad's house

I chose the latter.  

I braced myself as I dialled dad's number into my phone...

"Hello?"

"Hi."

"Who is this please?"

"Your daughter."

"Amelia?"

"No"

"Sophia?"

"Wrong family dad."

"Pardon?"

"What about those 2 girls you abandoned 2 years ago, for your new family?"

"Oh Anna?"

"It's Anne or Annie, but no."

"Luciana?"

"please dad, no one has called me that since I was 3. Oh but you wouldn't know that would you..." I replied bitterly.

"Wow, calm down there, what a pre-teen."

"I was a pre-teen, 5 years ago." 

"Why did you call me?"

"I'm in London."

"Oh lovely, why don't you all pop by to say hello tomorrow morning."

"I left home. I need a place to stay."

There was a long silence at the end of the phone.

"You know my adress..." He said, unwillingly, after about 3 minutes of silence.

There we go, another long(er) chapter. What do you think is going to happen next?!