7 Things~ *Short Story*

7 Things~ *Short Story* {11/14} *His Kisses*

11/14

*His Kisses*

I smiled into the kiss as we were in the backseat of his car. I don't even know what he was planning to happen, but we were practically making out with each other. I don't know what came over me, but I couldn't help but to kiss him. I know we broke up a couple years ago, but it's like we never broke up. I loved this time we had together, although this isn't right. This really isn't. We broke up a couple years ago and were not even together anymore. I pulled away, placing my hands on his chest, trying to catch my breath.

“Are we really doing this right now?” I whispered while trying to catch my breath. I don't know what I'm thinking right now, but my mind is so clouded with something I havent felt in awhile. Desire and lust. I sighed as I kept my arms around his neck. I was so wrapped up in him, it was unreal.

He chuckled softly as he looked into my deep brown eyes. “I don't know...Why?” He mumbled as he played with the tips of my hair, sprawled out on the seat beneath us as I smiled softly. “Would you not want this to happen..?” He asked, his hazel eyes boring into mine. Those eyes were the same as they were the last time I looked in them.

“I don't know..I mean....” I mumbled, biting my lip as he looked down at me. “I spent the last two years trying to get over you and now you're back, begging me to take you back..” I mumbled as my hands played with the hair on the back of his head. I don't know why, but being here with him seemed to be like something I should have been doing two years ago. “How do I know that you won't go back to who you were two years ago..?” I asked as I felt his hand cup my chin in his hand.

“Selena, how many time do I have to say this? I have changed...I’m not the same guy I was two years ago..” He mumbled as I bit my lip.

“How do I know that?” I asked, looking up at him. I gulped back my worry as I felt his lips appear on my neck. I leaned my head back, letting him kiss my neck as it felt like something I missed out on while we were going out the first time around. I smiled, releasing a soft moan from my lips. “Justin....” I mumbled as he pulled away ever so slightly to look at me.

“What do I have to do to convince you that i'm not the same guy..?” He asked, looking deeply in my brown eyes. I smiled, biting my lip as I tried to get my heart rate somewhat normal. After a couple minutes of looking intently at each other, I gave up on trying to slow it down as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I pulled his lips back to mine as I kissed him deeply. I don't know what came over me, but I knew I needed him close to me and that I needed to kiss him. I played with the hair on the back of his neck as he wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer to him. I couldn't hide anything about my feelings about him.

I loved him. Always have and always will.

There was no denying that.

I pulled away from him as I put my forehead to his. I don't know what happened but I had to say, I couldn't exactly say I didn't like it.

I smiled softly as I placed my hand against his cheek. I don't know why, but I felt like I was trying to catch my breath. I was absolutely breathless and I wasn't completely sure why. Maybe it was just him. Maybe it was just because I hadn't kissed anyone besides him in the past two years. I sighed as I let my mind wander as to why he affected me the way he did. I didn't get it. I bit my lip, looking into his light brown, almost hazel eyes as I smiled. I tried catching my breath as I bit my lip. I played with the hair on the back of his neck.

“I don't get it...” I mumbled, chuckling softly and for a split second as I looked up at him deeply.

“What don't you get..?” He asked, playing with the tips of my hair. I didn't get any of this, but did that mean anything at all?

“I don't get how after two years, it feels as if nothing has changed. Like I didn't leave for two years, ignoring the world..” I mumbled, shaking my head. “You still have this crazy effect on me..” I mumbled, looking into his eyes. I shook my head, looking away from him.

“And is that bad..?” He asked, placing one of his hands on my cheek.

“I don't know..But I'm just conflicted on what to do about you..I don't know anymore....” I mumbled as he leaned in, kissing me again, softly. It's as if he was scared that this wasn't going to last.

And that scared me.

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“I really liked the time I spent with you today..” I mumbled as I walked down the street with him. We decided just to go on a walk before he vanished again. I didn't get it. What made him so special that would make it so he had a strong, possessive control over me. I couldn't say I didn't like it either...

“I did too. I hope we can do it again soon..” He mumbled, reaching over to take my hand in his. I don't know how I felt about all this, but that didn't really mean that we were together again, right?

I smiled as I don't know how I was supposed to react to this. I sighed as we got to my house. I didn't want this to end but I didn't exactly want to have this continue.. I sighed as he stopped, pulling me back him. He cupped my chin in his hand as I bit my lip.

“Are you okay, Selena..?” He asked, looking deep into my eyes as I sighed.

I thought over the question as I didn't know what to say. I didn't know if I wanted to say no because I didn't want him close, but then again I kind of needed him near. I didn't know if I wanted to say yes because I loved hiss him again and feeling wanted by someone else, even if it was only for a day. I looked up and into his eyes as I sighed. “I don't know..” I said as he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close to him.

“What’s on your mind..?” He whispered into my ear, making chills fly down my back.

“I just...” I sighed as I bit my lip. “I really liked today and I had a blast with you, but I think this is just a little thing that's not going to last..” I mumbled as I bit my lip. “I don't want to lose you...” I mumbled, looking up at him, resting my hands on his chest.

He smiled, placing his forehead to mine. “I promise you, Selena, You're not going to lose me.” He mumbled, keeping his gaze on mine.

I smiled, wrapping my arms around his neck, pressing my lips to his. I didn't care that I was not his and he was not mine. I just cared that I had him with me. It seemed without even thinking about it, I jumped on him, wrapping my legs around his waist as he leaned me against the house. He rested his hands on my thighs, holding me up as we kissed each other like there was no tomorrow.

After a couple minutes, I pulled away, looking at him. I bit my lip as I sighed shakily. “Jay..” I mumbled, trying to catch my breath. “I love you Jay...Always have..” I mumbled, leaving my forehead against his.

“I love you too, Selena..” He mumbled as I smiled.

“But I don't know if I can just keep doing this..” I mumbled as he shook his head.

“Selena, you're the only one that I could ever love this way..” He mumbled, making me look at him. “You should know this..” He mumbled as I gulped. He sighed as he looked at me deeply.  “Selena, I love you, I really do..Always have and always will. Selena, will you be my girlfriend again” He mumbled as I gulped.

I bit my lip as I thought about it. “Can I think about it for a little...?” I asked him as he sighed, placing me back on the ground.

“Okay..” He mumbled, leaning forward, kissing my forehead as I kept my arms tightly around his waist, not letting him leave. He chuckled, hugging me back as I let him go after five minutes of just standing there.

“I’ll see you around...” I mumbled as he leaned down, his hand on my cheek as he kissed my forehead.

With that, he walked away, leaving me there in front of my house. I gulped as I walked into the house, closing the door behind me. I leaned against it as I slipped my hands in my back pockets. My brow furrowed as I pulled my hand out of my back pocket to see a piece of paper. I opened it to see a number on it with a hand-scribbled note.

‘Call me when you know what you want..-Jay’

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