The role of her life

What's going on?

She just stood there and looked at me concerned as I couldn't help but get lost in her beautiful blue eyes.
"Uhm.. yes, yes I'm ok." I stuttered slightly before I got up from the ground and cleaned my pants form the dirt I was sitting in. Is that the lead actress? Am I really talking to Cate Blanchett right now?

'Oh good! You scared me for a second there! Is your head ok though? I heard it hitting the trailer all the way back there.' She chuckled softly before she tugged some hair behind my ear and gently felt along my forehead to find the spot that hit the trailer. "No it's fine. I should have looked out for things in my way but uhm something caught my attention for too long.." I laughed and looked down for a second as I felt my cheeks getting all flushed.

'Follow me, I'll get you some ice for it and maybe a cup of water? I'm Cate by the way, I'm the lead actress and I think you are..' She stopped talking as we walked to the area with refreshments and all sorts of things, waiting for me to introduce myself. "Oh, I'm Evelyn. I got the part for the lead actors part-..." I stopped for a second and swallowed harshly. "So uhm I will be playing your uhm partner" I said a bit quieter this time as she smiles at me and hands me a cup of water and a pack of ice.

'It looks like it! It's nice to meet you Evelyn. If you need help with anything or something like tips and tricks, you can always ask me.' The older, blonde said softly and continued to walk away to probably continue her conversation from earlier. I will play her partner. In a romance. Will we have to... no Evelyn stop thinking about that right now. I shook my head and drank the water before holding the ice to my head. She was perfect even though she was just standing there in her black jeans, boots and a longer, dark green sweater. Her hair looked so soft and the way she kept running her fingers through it nearly made me drool.

After starring at her beauty for most of the day and getting introduced to everyone on set the day was over again and everyone said goodbye before heading to their places again. Even though I wanted to stay behind and talk a bit more with Cate I decided to leave as well and just couldn't believe all this even though it was all already happening. I came home to my small apartment and dropped everything on the kitchen table before getting undressed and taking a bath. I'm shooting a movie with Cate Blanchett. Holy shit.

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The next week went by so fast that I already can't remember what I did this whole time. It was a lot of talking, getting to know each other and trying to make a good working atmosphere for the shooting which we gladly managed to do. Every day was just another amazing experience on set and everyone was just so welcoming and friendly. It wasn't long until the first scene and even though I loved it here I got very nervous as I was replaceable.

During lunch, when everyone was sitting together at a big table and enjoyed there food I was spending my time outside the building, trying not to cry. I was once again lost in my thoughts until I felt a hand on my shoulder and someone sitting down next to me. I looked up and nearly choked on my own spit when I noticed Cate sitting next to me and looking me up and down with worry written all over her face. 'Why are you not inside? With all the others? Are you not feeling good?'

I looked at her and I wasn't even sure what I should say. I wasn't feeling good but I wasn't sure why I should tell her. "I uhm I just needed some fresh air." I said quietly as I looked down, scared she could see that I was lying if I would look her in the eyes. 'Evelyn, look at me. Please?' Her tone got very soft yet worried. I may ended up giving in and looked up at her. "I'm just not hungry. That's all." I tried to shake her off again and looked back down but she wasn't letting go of it. I felt her moving closer and laying her arm around me as she pulled me closer to her. 'Look, this must be scary for you to have a big role like this for the first time. I was scared when I had my first big role..' She hummed softly and I just shook my head and felt tears running down my cheeks.

We sat there for a couple more minutes until Cate looked down at me and noticed tears dropping down onto the ground from my face while I was trying to not completely burst out in tears. She knew how I felt and I wanted to tell her so badly but I didn't want to seem weak. The thought of asking for help just made me feel even worse and I didn't want her to pity me or feel bad for me, yet I enjoyed her comfort. She slightly squeezed my arm before gently rubbing it. 'Hey? What's going on?'