The role of her life

Do you prefer italian or french?

My eyes widened and I tensed up, not because I was uncomfortable more because I thought I was dreaming. "You.. you like me?" I stuttered under my breathing that got a lot heavier when she pushed me up against the wall. 'Yes, but don't lie to me about how you feel. I don't like that.' She said softly as she backed off just a bit so she could look me in the eyes as we talk. 'Now tell me, what is actually going on?'

After hesitation and some convincing we sat down on the couch again and I told her about my struggles as some big tears streamed down my face. Not being able to pay my rent sometimes, not really getting any jobs for years and just starting to feel like I wasn't talented enough to ever become a actress. After I vented for a bit she shook her head and gently placed her hand on my cheek before caressing it with her thumb and wiping the tears away that have been sitting there. 'Oh my, I'm glad you didn't give up. You are perfect for this role and you are perfect for a lot of other upcoming stuff!' Cate smiled at me and I just stared at her, again.

"You are beautiful." After that was a moment of silence as I was shocked I said it out loud and Cate probably expected everything but that as the next thing I would say. "I uhm that was uhm I'm sorry." I stuttered before she smiled and placed a finger on my lips. 'You are beautiful too Evelyn.' She smiles before she looked down to my lips for a second before meeting my eyes again. 'And your lips are very soft.' I basically felt how my heart was pounding against my chest with every single word she said and with every little movement she made.

We just sat there like this for a bit before she gently pulled her hand away and smiled at me. 'Would you like to try the scene again? Maybe where we stopped?' She asked as she got up and leaned against the wall. "Oh uhm sure." I smiled softly as I felt better now that she actually knew what was going on and I didn't had to carry it around anymore just by myself. I placed myself with my back against the wall and smiled as Cate grabbed my wrists again and held them over my head while pushing me up against the wall. 'Well, since you are already here.' She smirked and slowly trailed her hands down my body.

I felt my breathing become heavier and I know it was just practice for the scene and it's just acting but the feelings I've been having for her recently weren't. As she leaned closer to kiss me I moved away, not sure why. "I... Cate I uhm.." I felt a lump in my throat and tried to push down the feelings but it was just so overwhelming. 'What's the matter? Do you not want to kiss me?' She looked at me quite confused and I felt my lip quiver. "I do.. but.."

'But what?' She moved a bit away so I could move a bit more freely and wasn't pinned up against a trailer wall. "Nothing.. I just I don't know.. I need time." I mumbled a bit anxious before I felt tears forming again and I left the trailer again. 'Evelyn?' She came after me once I was outside and even though I didn't want to talk about it I stopped and when she was closer to me I just slowly sunk into her arms and onto my knees with her. 'Hey.. it's ok darling. Take your time ok? Breath..' She stroked my back as I was just giving in and started to cry into her chest.

She stopped talking and just let me cry out for a moment before I looked up at her and sniffled a bit. "I'm sorry, I cried all over your shirt.." She looked down and smiled softly before cupping my face and kissing me on top of my head. 'It's ok, I promise.' She smiled and continued to help me back up before we slowly headed back to the trailer and just practiced some of the other lines and scenes.

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It's been a couple days since I had a little breakdown in front of Cate and we had already begun shooting the first scenes. Everything went well and the scenes were absolutely no problem but we came closer to the scene I was nervous about. It was the last scene we shot today before the sex scene was coming and I was way more nervous then I should be.

For now we finished shooting for today and everyone was just shaking hands and saying goodbye and went home. I cleaned up some more of my stuff and as I turned around I saw Cate coming up to me. 'Hey, I know it's a bit of a weird question but would you mind coming with me tonight? We could have dinner together and maybe just lean back a bit? My hotel room is big!' She smiled and even though I just wanted to go home and cry again I felt like this might take my mind off of the upcoming scenes. "Sounds great, I'll just grab my coat and everything and we could go?" I smile and hurry to my things before walking back to her car. 'Do you prefer italian or french?'