last feeling of hope.

this feels illegal.

Nagito's pov

a few hours later

Time had passed by so quickly that I hadn't even realized that the sky was now the deepest shade it could go. Had I really been talking with Hajime this long? I don't even recall hearing monokuma's 10 p.m. announcement. Now that I think about it, what time was it?

" Hey, Hajime? " I asked. Hajime turned his head back to look at me. His gaze seemed strong, kinda intimidating.

" Yes, Nagito? " He replied with a slight smile.

"What time is it?" 

Hajime turned to look at the moon, I could see the small smile had furrowed into a small frown. He had looked slightly concerned, he finally turned his head to look back at me.

"It's definitely past 1. We should probably head back now. " He explained

"Oh okay. That works for me. " I could feel my worries slowly grow back on me once he said we should head back. Weirdly enough, I didn't want to head back. I wanted to stay right here. next to him. He filled me with an enormous amount of hope. Hajime always strikes my interest though, since the first day I met him washed up on the shore. He always made me want to crave more of him. In what way though? I'm not completely sure. I wanted to know him, yet, I wanted him to love me? I can't tell if what I wanted from him was his love or some weird dark desire I want to require that would cause him despair. 

Hajime's pov

Was Nagito bored? Did he really want to head back now? I'm not going to lie to myself. This was fun and if he wanted to stay I wouldn't have minded. 

He was able to take my mind off all the tragic events that kept reappearing in my head over and over. I enjoyed feeling like things were normal and that Nagito and I were just two best friends hanging out on the beach, during a class trip, in the middle of the night. I'm glad I forced myself to hang out with Nagito. 

Tonight was a goodnight. I needed to thank him. If it weren't for him talking all my worries away I would probably be in my cottage right now over-analyzing every sound, fearing for my new school life. 

" Hey, Nagito? " Nagito's head turned down to look down at me, he had already been standing ready to go I assume.

" Thank you. For tonight. I had a lot of fun. " I looked at him and let the words of gratitude flow out of my mouth. I closed my eyes and shot him a smile. 

I opened my eyes to the sight of Nagito's arm stretched out in front of my face. His hand waiting to be grasped by mine. He was helping me up but somehow made it seem princely. I've never seen someone hold their hand out in such grace, except Sonia of course but she was royalty so it is required for her to be graceful in general. 

This seemed different. Nagito seemed to have such a stern but warming expression. The wind was loud and fast. it was pushing his hair in the pale moonlight. The moonlight had shone brightly and vividly, his tall slightly muscular silhouette had been standing out considering he was standing in front of the moon. He truly was an angelic human. 

I quickly shook off my thoughts and reached my hand out towards his. he gently helped pull me up to my feet. 

" Thank you again, Nagito. " I quickly started trying to loosen my grip on his hand. He only had tightened his grip.

" Nagito? " I expressed with confusion. He smiled and quickly pulled me in. Before I knew it, Nagito was hugging me. Tightly. I took a second to hug him back, mostly because my reaction was delayed due to total shock. 

third-person pov

There they were, the two very different boys, hugging in the bright moon-lit beach. It had honestly felt like time had just stopped. 

Hajime couldn't help but feel safe in Nagito's arm even if Nagito had been a bit psychotic. Hajime wanted to stay like this for a while. Everything, his worries, fears, desire to leave were all washed away with Nagito's warm embrace. 

Hajime had the urge to keep going, keep his investigation on Nagito going. Continue helping Nagito no matter the consequences, no matter the pain that came with it. Hajime wanted to take all the despair out of him and wanted Nagito to feel a sense of happiness of relief. Hajime was going to do what it takes to wash Nagitos worries away as Nagito's hug did. Hajime felt motivated. Determined.

 Nagito on the other hand had been trying to solve what his real desire was. What did he truly want? He couldn't help but feel as if he wanted to be by Hajime's side through everything or make his life a living hell while he could. What was he doing in the first place? 

Nagito didn intend to hug hajime. HE couldn't resist the urge though. Nagito really liked Hajime. He always had and right now at this moment, he wanted to protect Hajime and keep him safe, not hurt him. Nagito had been conflicted with his feeling, but if one thing for sure... Nagito wanted to keep Hajime safe. Even if it didn't keep Nagito safe. His feelings honestly felt, illegal.

authors note: 

Hihihihihii so I decided that I'm going to be updating this story every other day so that I can have a posting schedule and give myself time in between chapters to pre-write stuff and give myself mini-breaks from writing <3 if you haven't noticed these chapters have been over 700 words and tbh it's kinda difficult to write that much for someone like me who has a short attention span. anyway, that's all. starting today ill be posting on odd days so ;0

drink water, eat food, stay safe, and have a wonderful night, day, afternoon <333