My Desdemona.

Chapter four- book cuddles

Desdemona

remember how i said i wasn't gonna fall for his tricks and manipulation? well turns out... that's exactly what i'm gonna do. hey how can you blame me, this whole library thing was romantic, not that there's any kind of romance between us but I'm a sucker for romantic gestures, i also love nostalgia and reminiscing about things in my past. being with Harry in general is enough to bring me back to memory lane.

"this is the one!" i shout as i finally picked the perfect book to read. it was a book written in the point of view of Shakespeare characters if they were from modern times. I held it out for him to see and he just smiled and shook his head slightly.

"okay but if i fall asleep you can't get mad" he said waving his hands defensively with a small chuckle as he stood up. we've been here for a little over 30 minutes, it taking me that long to find a book. i rolled my eyes and giggled as i sat down on the couch leaving space between us. but that didn't last long because he quickly moved me over to him and wrapped his arms around me. "harry what are you doing?" i said with a laugh as he held onto me as if i was gonna be ripped away from him.

he snuggled his face into the crook of my neck, giving my skin a sloppy wet kiss causing me to giggle. even when we were friends this side of him was rare and sometimes i thought i was the only person who got to see it. he can be so goofy and he secretly loves to cuddle. he kept nudging his nose into my neck causing me to giggle uncontrollably.

ugh i've missed this. and that totally sucks.

"are you gonna read or what Dezzy?" his voice slightly muffled due to his lips being pressed into my skin. i can feel every breath on my skin causing goosebumps to form on my neck which i know he notices. i nodded softly and started reading out loud to him. as soon as i started reading he started kissing my neck very softly. i ignored him the best that i could and continued to read but he slowly started to get... less gentle with the kisses causing my breath to hitch.

i stopped reading for a moment as i let my eyes close from the feeling of his lips on my skin. but as soon as i stopped reading he pulled away causing a small whine to leave my lips before i could stop it, causing him to chuckle quietly. "why'd you stop reading Dezzy?" he said teasingly with an innocent smile, knowing exactly what he was doing. 

"Harry." i said in a warning tone causing him to smirk. i just rolled my eyes before returning to my spot in the book. and just as i suspected as soon as i started reading again, harry returned to attacking my neck. i let out a sigh and tried to focus, knowing now that he'll stop if i stop.

and we both know i don't want him to stop.

his kisses got less gentle as i continued reading, i let out a soft hum of approval, making him smile against my skin. this is dangerous. he's making me feel things again and we've only been hanging out together for one day. and not just like feelings like physically, although he is especially good at that. i think i'm starting to get attached to him again. which is terrifying. i'm scared he's gonna run away, but i'm even more afraid i'm gonna run away again.

there's a reason why i don't have many friends, i push people away to prevent me from getting hurt in the long run. i tried to push harry away but he somehow pushed his way right back in.

"Dezzy you stopped again." he paused when he saw my face. "Hey, you okay? i- if you you need me to stop i can, do you want to go home?" harry's soothing voice pulled me out of my thoughts. his brows are furrowed and his eyes full of worry, i smile at him as i admire his beautiful features. "Dez what is it?" he says more sternly. i turn so i'm facing him and i hum quietly before placing a soft kiss on the corner of his mouth.

"relax H i'm fine, just- got lost in my thoughts. but it's cute that you're worried." i smiled planting a kiss on the tip of his nose causing his face to scrunch up a little as he chuckled. "Desdemona i want to make sure you know that i don't want you to feel pressured ev-" he started to ramble but i cut him off by crashing my lips onto his.

he immediately relaxed his tensed shoulders and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to straddle him. he hummed into the kiss pulling me in closer if that was even possible. "that was a clever way to shut me up miss Juune. i think you should do it more often." he said breathlessly between kisses causing me to giggle.

he suddenly crashed his lips back onto mine this time more feverishly than before. he tightened his grip on my thighs, pushing our hips together causing me to gasp. which he used to his advantage by sticking his tongue in my mouth immediately taking over the kiss. i ran my hand through his hair and tugged a little on his curls earning a low groan from him that vibrated on my lips.

that sound flooded my brain with memories that i think about way too often as it is.

one year ago

Harry took me to his best friend louis' soccer game but we left early. the tension between us after the night before was intoxicating. he drove fast and even ran a stop sign or two on the way here and nearly ripped the car door right off as he rushed to get me to his room. i cackled as he practically yanked me out of the car, pulling me into his chest, stopping to kiss me quickly before continuing up his drive way. i smiled to myself at the fact that both Anne and Gemma's cars were gone meaning we had the house to ourselves.

"you know- Harry this probably isn't good for your reputation... the king of high school slumming it with the book freak. people are sure gonna talk about this." i said with a smirk as he carried me up the stairs, my legs wrapped tight around his waist. with my hands running through his long brown hair, tugging on it slightly earning a moan from him as he quickened his pace to his room.

he pushed open his door and wasted no time gently tossing me on the bed. and after he asked me if i was okay he crawled over me, pausing to study my facial expressions to make sure i'm okay with this before he crashed our lips together again. but he quickly pulled away causing me to whine and follow his lips to stop him from pulling away

"and those people that judge me for sleeping with the coolest girl i know can fuck off." he said through heavy breaths before reconnecting our lips.

i guess as i was deep in thought i didn't realize my hips were slowly circling causing harry's eyes to wire shut as he let out a small moan from the contact. i smirked at him earning an eye roll from him. but as soon as i started to lean forward to connect our lips again, a bright light was shined in our eyes causing both of us to freeze.

oh shit.

Authors note-
and on that slight cliffhanger.... Hi i gave some more fwb content which i'm sure there will be more to come (no pun intended) but for now thank you for reading make sure to vote and comment ily see you soon.
love love love,
                       -maddi <3