Heaven only knows when I'm in hell, known of my friends can even tell. I wanna fuckin die but I never say it, Sick of getting High but I do the same shit. I can't even cry so I try to fake it, I hate it! I pray to god let me die in my sleep I pray to god let me die in my sleep You as sick as all the secrets you keep, but the truth is I don't wanna be me! I pray to god let me die in my sleep. Now I'm waking up and I'm not dead, Living off the words I know you said.. I feel like I'm alive and I'm gonna make it Maybe if I cry I don't have to fake it I'm giving up my pain so you can take it, I hate it. I pray to god I don't die in my sleep I pray to god I don't die in my sleep I'm as sick as all the secrets I keep, but the truth is I can only be me! I pray to god I don't die in my sleep! I pray to god I don't die in my sleep, I pray to god I don't die in my sleep. And now I'm sick as all the secrets I keep. I pray to god I don't die in my.
I sang into the mic with my producer In front of me smiling as I sing out my heart break. I hoped to call the song 'Pray'
I knew that deep down all I was thinking about was Brooklyn she helped me so much, She's gorgeous and doesn't give a fuck, but she does have that soft spot for some people, wait am I one of those people? Probably not and what if Mads comes back I mean I don't want her anymore she is so problematic.
"Yo Jay that was fire" he said snapping me out of my thoughts and I nod. "Thanks man" I said.
Brooklyn's POV
"Where the fucks Jaden" Blake asked running into my room. "The studio why" I ask looking at my phone. "How?!" He yelled "I don't know I told him to get out of his room and he went to the studio?" I said looking at him seriously.
"That's a big deal Brooklyn! He wouldn't come out for us" he said shocked "I don't blame him for that now get out" I said and he laughs. "Ok ok sorry" he said
Seriously, Jaden ignored them and listened to me. I felt even more accomplished now:)
"Come on we are taking Instagram photos" Noah said barging in. "Do you weirdos know how to knock what if I was making out with someone" I suggest and he just laughs. "Relax I've seen that before so come on!" He said "sure I'm gonna change so don't barge in" I say rolling my eyes. "Yes ma'am" he said walking out.
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"That outfit is horrible" josh said I fake smile and reply with "your horrible" 🙄 And walk to the couch "u are horrible and I think it looks nice" jaden said scaring me and telling josh off. "Hey Jaden when'd you get back" I ask "just now" he said chuckling.
"so your nice to Jaden and not us" Blake said "because your all weirdos and Jaden's... Jaden" I said laughing "look she's laughing for once!" Noah yelled
(Y'all I edit and this isn't that horrible)
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"Finally, bye losers" I said walking up the steps but josh pulled me back. "Wait I have a question" he said "ask" I say.
"Please be honest, do you like Jaden" he asked a little nervous. "Um I don't know" I said looking away. "You nice to Quinten and Jaden but Quin said your just friends so" he said "look i know how it feels to be in a bad relationship...I just don't know how I feel about him." I say unsure he nods "ok then bye" he said walking away.
I swear if he tells Jaden I'm gonna beat the shit out of my brother!
1 hour later
I hear screaming and weird sounds of a nerf gun? All the sudden Quinten barged in running and hiding under the bed "q what the fu-" he shushed me. "Shhh Josh's gonna kill me" he said letting go "fine.." I said and sat down.
"QUINTEN where are you?!" Josh yelled "Brooklyn is quin here?" He asked over the door "No leave me alone" I say. "I know he's in there! He's your best friend" josh said knocking "can you shut the fuck up!" I said and he left I start getting q out from under my bed and unlock the door and he sits on my bed really close to me. Right when josh barges in. "What the fuck I asked if he was here" he said "and he wasn't until... now" I said "Got ya" josh smiled and shot him with the nerf gun.
I decided to go check on Jaden since nobody else does and hear quiet sobs and whispers, "Jay um can i come in" I ask quietly "Um sure" he said quiet and un-easy.
"Jaden what's wrong" I ask looking at him, head in his knees. "The song was for Mads but we broke up and Nessa is waiting for me to feel better so we can continue our song" he said hugging me.
"Jaden calm down your gonna be fine, she doesn't deserve you." I said hugging him "I'm sorry, I'm such a mess" he says crying. "Your not Jaden it's normal this has happened to me too, I'm here" I said calming.
