You can't save me

Chapter Nine: Ginny Weasley

The next morning Harry woke up in Remus's arms feeling very warm and fuzzy as he didn't exactly know what time it was but he felt like he never wanted to leave his papa's arms.
As another hour or two past by; Remus finally wakes up to see Harry bundled up in his arms with Harry's face hidden inside his chest and lightly snoring.

"Harry cub, you need to wake up for breakfast." said Remus gently shaking Harry as he began to wake up rubbing his eyes lazily.

"I-I-I'm n-not h-hungry papa." stuttered Harry as he sat up rubbing his eyes and Remus knew for a fact that Harry was lying and trying to get out of eating but he also knew that Harry was still warming up to him and has always gone for long periods of time without eating.

"Come on cub...try and eat please, for me." said Remus in his gentle and calm voice that Harry loved.

"Okay but papa...." said Harry quietly as he grabbed Remus wrist gently as Remus was about to get up but was stopped.

"Hey...What's wrong pup...?" asked Remus gently as he sat back down next to Harry who was fiddling with his fingers and biting his lower lip which concerned Remus.

"I-I uh.." stuttered Harry as he continued to fiddle with his fingers and was now fumbling with his words as Remus lifted Harry's head with his hand so the two were making eye contact.

"I promise, whatever you say won't upset me and I won't judge either." said Remus softly with a small smile on his face.

"I-I'm not r-really comfortable c-calling you p-papa in front of e-everyone..." said Harry quietly as he continued to fiddle with his fingers and began to bite on his lower lip again but slightly harder this time than before.

"That's okay cub, you can start off when it's only us and whenever you're ready to say it in front of everyone, then I'll be ready too; anything else?" asked Remus with a soft smile on his face.

"I-I uh....Ilikefredweasley." said Harry but he said the last part really fast as his face became a light shade of red.

"I'm sorry pup I didn't catch that last part." said Remus as Harry then broke the eye contact when his face became a deeper shade of red.

"I really really like F-Fred W-Weasley...." said Harry quietly but Remus still managed to hear him and let out a small chuckle.

"Are you embarrassed or did you think I would be upset..?" asked Remus calmly as he saw how nervous Harry looked.

"B-Both.." said Harry quietly as he covered his face with both hands.

"Cub, it's okay to be embarrassed but I'm not upset, I was married to S-Sirius." said Remus as he said Sirius name quietly, it still broke his heart to say his name and the memories of him with Sirius made his heart swell but shatter at the same time.

"I miss dad papa..." said Harry quietly as he rested his head in the center of Remus chest.

"Me too cub...me too." said Remus as he was trying so hard to fight the urge to cry and started to run his fingers through Harry's hair.

"How about we get some breakfast cub." said Remus as both he and Harry got up from the bed when Remus exited the bathroom fully dressed and ready for the day he saw that Harry was still in gray sweatpants and a black hoodie which Remus assumed to be his pajamas and was just standing there.

"Hey cub...Is there something wrong..?" asked Remus with that soft and gentle voice that Harry loved as he walked towards Harry until he was standing in front of him.

"C-Can you come w-with me...? I d-don't want to be a-a-alone..." said Harry quietly as he began biting his lower lip.

"Of course I can come with you pup, just lead the way." said Remus as Harry grabbed his hand and lead him into his room as they walked inside Harry's room Harry shuts the door and goes into his closet and grabs a pair of light blue jeans and a black t-shirt while also grabbing Fred's hoodie while getting dress inside of his closet he got a clear view of his scars sand cuts and that caused Harry to feel ashamed but he would keep that to himself for now as he walked out of his closet and on his way to the restroom in his room he saw Remus sitting on his bed and he went to brush his teeth and wash his face off, he has dark bags under his eyes probably from lack of sleep as he gripped his hands on the side of the sink and looked at himself in the mirror, he hated the way he looked and there was a voice in his head that told him "Just end it here, no one cares." but he couldn't leave his papa alone and he told himself he was strong and that there was someone, somewhere that loved him, for him; it was the only thing that stopped him from completely ending it, it was the only thing that stopped that voice in the back of his end from taking over, and it made him believe that there was someone who truly loved him as Harry and not as The Boy Who Lived.