~the story~

chapter 12

a/n: hey, i know i normally put these at the bottom but i judt wanted to thank you guys for being so patient with me. i haven't been feeling the best but i've been updating little by little. i have about 3 1/2 chapters of content pre written which i will spread accross the following weeks. i also want to thank you all for 940 reads. its honestly amazing that this many people are invested in this. i also want to thank my great friend yasmin who i know reads this. she checks up on me everyday with out fail and makes my days so much better. thanks again for everything and i hope you enjoy this chapter. 

( i'm also trying a new format so let me know which one you prefer!)

conan's pov:

i heard ash leave and y/n come into my room. i turned over to face my wall and she laid down next to me.

'hey cone' she said in a sad voice

i didn't answer.

big tears rolled down my face as a remember what charlie said

'there's so much she hasn't told you'...

'i don't know what i've said, or what i i've done but i'm really sorry, i hate seeing you like this please just talk to me' she said, quite obviously trying to hold back tears

'it's what you haven't said. you never told me you knew charlie, if you did you would know thats she's my physco ex girlfriend who can't seem to leave me alone. if you'd told me, you would know that i get all choked up around her because i'm scared about what she's going to do to our relationship. and finally if you'd told me, you would know that i can't look at her without crying because she can never seem to be happy for me when i move on, its all about her' i said so angerily i thought my head was going to explode. 

y/n stayed silent. 

y/n's pov

'conan i'm sorry i-' i began

'leave. now' he said

'conan please-' 

'GO' 

i shut the door behind me and left. 

as i walked home those words never left my mind

'if you had told me' 

i continued the rest of the way home with a heavy heart.

when i finally got home dad was still in front of the tv, asleep

i turned it off and put a blanket over him before locking up the house

i opened up my computer and begain to watch american horror story but it felt weird watching it without conan. 

i shut it down and cried

i cried about us

i cried about how charlie always got in the way

i cried about why i just couldn't be happy 

and i finally cried and realised how closed off i was to conan. 

he told me everything about his life and didn't tell him about mine

i wiped my tears and took some deep breaths. 

i went and sat in my hammok and i typed 

i typed and typed and told him about everthing. about how my dad was one of my only friends. how tyler was my best friend and we did everything together. how i struggled when my mum left us and finally about how him and his music really helped me. 

i don't know if it was the moonlight or the excessive caffine i had had that day but i felt a sense of freedom. freedom that i had never felt before. a sense of something special. 

i sent him the text and went to bed. 

word count: 584 <3