I just think about how when I grow up I won't have my child hood anymore. It scares me so fucking much, I don't want to stop being careless. I don't want my parents to pass away, I'm scared to take care of myself. I feel like I won't be able to handle it , I've always been taken care of. I won't have my online friends anymore, I'll probably be so lonely and depressed with nothing. Absolutely nothing. It seems so stressful with the things I've heard of like rent, food, medical bills and all sorts. I don't want to lose everyone. I've spent most of my night crying. I really don't know what else to write.
