In that same day, the classes ended earlier because the Beauxbatons' and Durmstrang's students would arrive at 6 pm and we would have a welcome party in the Great Hall
I was with Carrie in the entrace of the castle waiting they arrive, I didn't tell her what happened after I leave her in the Slytherin table to talk to Harry in the morning
I was still angry with Harry for not telling me about his scar, so I have been avoiding him, Ron and Hermione the whole afternoon. I have to talk to Hermione to get my uniform and give her skirt back
I didn't talk to Malfoy in the afternoon either, I really didn't understand what happened, in one moment he looks concearned and sweer, like he cared about me and in the other he looks agressive and scary. I don't know what was real and what was lie
I keep looking back to see if Harry or Malfoy are looking to me, but neither of them are giving a fuck about me right now
I feel Carrie nudg me arm "Are you ok?" she ask chuckling "You look a little bit crazy looking back all the time like this" she looking back as well trying o see what I'm looking for
I turn around and face the black lake as everyone else. I sigh "Are you all right?" she ask concerned this time and put her arm around my shoulder
I sigh again "Not really" I say and rest my head in her shoulder "What happened?" she whispers. I tell her the whole story about Harry and Malfoy
"That's really odd" she says when I finished "What did you feel?" she asks and I furrow my eyebrows, don't understandind the question "When you hugged Draco, I mean" she say
I didn't think about it untill now. My palms start to get sweaty and my heart starts to beat faster. Why do this always happen when I think about me and Malfoy?
"I- I" I stutter, I don't know if I can talk about it. I don't even know why am I feeling right now, but I know that I can tell what I think to Carrie, she's my best friend after all "I don't know... I" I try to say, but nothing comes out
I sigh "I was kinda acting, just for make Harry jealous, 'cause I was so angry at him in the moment that I didn't think so well" I sigh again, I look to Carrie and she is facing the lake, waiting me to continue the story
I try to remember the sensation of being in Malfoy's arms "I felt good. I- I felt his strong cologne smell, it was good. In that moment I felt save and... and... protected from everything" I say and look to my feet "I really enjoyed and... in that moment I felt like he enjoyed too, but..." I sigh "After pulling away, he become agressive and rude again and told me to not tell anybody. So I don't know if he was really enjoying" I finish
Carrie nod "I see" she says "Look, I think you should talk to Harry and after that talk to Draco. And talk to yourself too. I think you have to find out what these feelings are" she say "Try to discover what this says" she puts a finger in my chest, where my heart is "And then, let this decide what you have to do" she move her finger from my chest to my forhead, where my brain is
I scoff "Are you saying that I have feeling for Malfoy? Really?" I ask sarcasticaly. She shrugs "That what you have to find out" she says and I take off her arm of my shoulders and face her "Seriously?" I chuckle "I don't like him. I was just not feeling well in that moment. I hate him, he is a rude, annoying, agressive, toxic, evil fucking prat" I say irritated and roll my eyes
She smirks and shrugs again "If you say so" she say and I hit her arm playfully "Unbelievable" I chuckle and shook my head
A/N: sorry for the short chapter, but I have a fucking history test tomorrow and I have to study. Sometimes I hate school
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