Rare breed (shirou X fem reader) SLOW BURN🔥

5- trauma

⚠️ TW⚠️ sensitive content mentions of abuse and panic attacks

"Y/n if you don't get your ass out here right now you will end up like your mother you hear me" glass bottles shattered as they hit your door

"Y-yes sir" you said your body shakily exiting the room

"Get me a beer"

"Yes sir" you said emotionless walking into the kitchen And grabbing a can from the fridge you slowly walked into the living room handing him the beer he grabbed it and inspected it he cracked it open and poured it on your head  you let out a small gasp

"This is the wrong one bitch" he said raising his hand preparing to hit you....
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"AH" you shot up from your bed with tears streaming down your face you got up and went to the kitchen trying to clean yourself up it was 3:47 a.m you grabbed a cup and filled it with water you proceeded to walk over to the table but your breath started to get shaky and hitched

You started getting really hot you chest started to heave up and down and sweat dripped down your face

you dropped the cup causing it to shatter you fell down you were having a panic attack no doubt you held yourself crying and shaking you felt like how you did back then so frail and helpless

Shirou POV

I heard y/n get up from bed but I didn't pay much mind to it because she was probably just going to the bathroom or getting water

I was going to go back to bed until I heard her going downstairs
I slowly got up and stretched I sat there for a sec letting the blood rush through until I heard glass shatter

I quickly got up and ran downstairs as fast as I could y/n was in the floor and she looked like she was terrified and by the looks of it she was having an episode

She was shaking really badly so I went over to her she looked up at me then back down at the glass "I-I-I'm s-sorry s-shirou" she whispered shakily

I didn't know what to do in that moment so I picked her up attempting to keep my distance but still keep her comfortable

Y/n clenched onto my shirt
not looking like she was going to let go anytime soon so I carried her back to my room when I went to lay her down on her bed she didn't let go of my shirt or me at all so I laid her down with me not getting to close trying not to make her uncomfortable but when I moved away she brought herself closer holding onto me like she would fall to her death if she let go so the only thing I had to do was lay there and let her clench onto me until she felt comfortable

It was....kind of awkward

She stopped shaking after a while and her grip loosened after she had fallen asleep completely I put her back in her bed and covered her up then I went back to bed

Your POV

It was a long night you didn't remember most of it Shirou was awake and in the process of leaving

"You'll never believe shirou I had a dream were i was in bed with you an-" you said once everything finally snapped you realized what you had said and you slapped you hand over my mouth
The corner of shirous mouth perked up and he rolled his eyes

You got up and stretched out "were you going" you asked as you walked out of the door with shirou

"Patrol"

"Can I come" you asked grabbing your cloak before completely leaving the room

"Why don't you go hang out with michiru "