DISBELIEF~billie eilish~

✴chapter 2✴

                      ~ August 30,2021~
 
-Death isn't as scary as everyone thinks. Honestly you might not even know your dead. You might never truly die, and that's the fucked up thing.-

My name is Amar. Which all of you already know cause why come here if you didn't know me. Why come here if you didn't want to get to know me.Why come here at all because there are only six people in this room that truly know me but even they don't know the half of it. The feeling of being alive but dead at the same time. Being completely lonely in a room full of people.You could call that feeling depression but this wasn't.Depression is something you can escape even thought it feels like you cant you can. This damn thing was slumber. The peace of sleep and having no worries.

Slumber became my worries there was no longer peace.Teriffied that I wouldn't wake up from what seemed like a dream.This was simply just years of my life that were wasted by this thing that was happening.Your life is to simple,to pure when your asleep. You don't have to worry about the darkness because if your one lucky son of a bitch. You will Wake up and see the light,you will hear the birds and cars you will feel the warmth of your bed against your skin. You will take a simple breath. You inhale and exhale knowing that you get to do that everyday. Your so self centered that you don't notice while your simply breathing because it comes so easy. That there is a child somewhere in this world hooked up to cords struggling to breath. Them trying to say the three simple words to there parents might cause them there life.

But breathing is so easy
Comes to you with no cost.

The day it all happened was one of the wort day's  sixteen year old me would ever have. I had hate in my heart mixed with sadness and love. Horrible combination I now but I was younger. Everyone does dumb shit when there young. Its just that my dumb and your dumb are to different types of stupidity. Your dumb didn't almost cause worldwide sadness.

You didn't almost Kill the two most important people of your life simply because of a breakup.

My name is Amar and I almost killed...

Billie eilish pirate Baird O'Connell         and Finneas Baird O'Connell.

That's what you know them as but I simply know them as

Mom and Uncle Finn.