Caution Tapes Vol. 1

worthless

Seems like everyday I just,
Complain.
Every second, every minute I'm tryna,
Maintain.
Gotta really bad headache maybe a,
Migrain.
All these sorrows I cannot,
Contain.
Might turn Into my moma and snort,
Cocaine.
Heavy breathing, dizzyness,
Chest pain.

But I got 1 grave for myself right here.

Cuts down my chest as I look in the mirror.

I'm sorry I cant keep a promise with all this fear.

I wish I could be better for you my dear.
I wish i...

I wish I could tell you itll be okay, but the future is unclear.

And my time is coming fast, I can see it near.

Words can break hearts and bones real fast.

Especially when you take a dhot right at my past.

Will this world ever let me move on from that?

I try to change for the better but the devil lays down the welcome mat.

Gives me a high five, and invites me in, and nods his hat.

He offered me a seat at his table and I sat.

Numb to the core, I'm numb to love, but I love pain.

The more you hurt me, the more I go insaine.

Tryna get outside of sorrow but I walk inside the rain.

Thinking to myself what will I ever gain?

...Dead inside...

You're talking to a guy who's dead.

Can't focus on what you say because I'm lost in head.

Sorry that I keep leaving you on read.

Most days I cant even get out of my bed.

Most days i consider eating that lead.

We cry on the inside, while we listen to Shiloh.

Wondering where I can find my hope.

Am I loosing conscious cause of lack of sleep? Or do I, die slow?

You ask me how i feel but how should I know?

XxX, told me to carry on.
But I just wanna Barry this song.
I wanna, get rid of this stress.
I cant even pon point where it stems from, it's a needle in a haystack in my chest.

I cant even pick up pieces.
Jesus.

Tears roll down like its april showers.

Loosing track of time, seconds turn into hours.

The strong young wolf is now a lonely...monster.

I'm just... a monster.