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O

do you ever look at
them,
and as tears fill your
eyes,
you realize they fill the
gap
where childhood once
was;
they feel like summer
nights around the fire,
like the smell of fresh
grass and lemonade.
like the warmth of the
sun on your eyelids.
like a bounding joy and
restless wonder that
puts the world in an
indescribable light.

I've always been in awe
of the pretty girls.
the effortlessly beautiful girls
the ones boys begon their hands and knees for
the girls you watch from a distance and admire
i've always wondered
what it's like to be one of those girls
one of the firls who have affection handed to them
the ones who look good without trying
girls who are praised
I've always wanted
to be one of those girls
i mean,dont we all?
but no matter how hard i try to change
my figure, my face, my clothes
my whole appearance could change
and i would still never be them
i will never be effortlessly beautiful

i stare into space
at the ticking clock
at the stars
i gaze at the blue sky
the clouds so slightly moving.
i hold your hand as the night gets low
as the dark begins to come
i walk you to your safety
wishing you farewell
i dont want to say goodbye
ill see you again someday

what if
two words that consistently haunt me
what if
i had said one word more
or perhaps one word less
then and only then
you would still  be mine

remembering what we were
can only harm me
remembering the laughs we shared
the times i felt like living
you made the best of me
now i have nothing

i hate the world.
its a terrible place filled
with terrible people.
but, when i met you, I
realized that since the
world had you in it, maybe
it wasnt so bad after all
you make up for all
the hatefull people, you
make up for every horrible
thing the world has shown
me.
my love, you are
certainly one of a kind