Secret Life

Pills

People have different ways of escape.
Depending on the situation
And what one has at one's reach,
Can differ the way of escape.

Some have biting,
Others cutting.
Other's drinking
And/or getting high.
Nonetheless, pills are
An option as well.

It's easier for some
More than others.
Some have people
That try and stop them,
Change their mind, their action,
And/or way of thinking.

First three times: chicken out.

Fourth time: 3X as much as
The prescribed dosage.

Fifth time: 5X as much as
The prescribed dosage.

A couple times later,
At 7:30PM: 11X as much as
The prescribed dosage.

With nobody knowing of this attempt,
Obviously.

Not trying to be stopped by
Anybody anymore.

People judge, oh well too bad.
Some people care,
Others give no fucks.

Half an hour has passed,
Nothing but a text msg sent
Saying "I'm sorry.."
Sent to the one person
That person trusts the most.
No reply, easier to not feel
Not reget nor sorry for
The action committed..

Unstoppable, and unvinsible,
For thy unhealthy, yet, surprisingly strong body resists such quantity,

A body that has delt with
Asthma, Pneumonia, Vitamin D Defficiency,
Migraine headaches, Migraine stomachaches,
Having had had MRI, Endoscopy,
Going to Neurologist, Psychologist, ENT, Urologist, GI, Pulmonary Doctors, Heart Center, and pretty much every other department in the Hospital including the ER for multiple different reasons.
All of them except for Cancer.

Cancer.
People with Cancer.
A deadly disease which not many survive
A disease which people hate more than anything.
A disease that people go through Hell in order to survive.
Survive and thrive and live their lives.
Living.

Living.
Not everybody likes living.
Many fight to get their lives taken from them.
Snatched away and be flown by the wind.
The wind.

The wind.
A part of nature which
While some like and enjoy
Others detest for reasons that
Only they know and understand.
Detest.

People detest things.
People also detest people.
Which leads to the following:
People, especially judgemental people,
Detest people that don't value
Their lives as well as other people
And what they do for them.

It is 8:10 PM now.
The only other thing running through
Thy mind is whether more pills shall be
Consumed.

Time for the next pills.