Rick & Kate All About Sex

Chapter 4

"Whoa!!" Rick says throwing his head back trying not to scream.

Looking at him through my eye leds I can see his eyes rolling to the back of his head. I can tell I was doing it right.

"That's enough Kate. Stop !" He says pulling my head up but I resist and go back.

"Kate I'm serious. I don't want to come in your mouth. Shit. St.. Stop !" He yells. Pulling away from me and standing.

"I'm... I'm sorry." I say looking down at my fingers.

"You should be. I said stop, why didn't you?" He asks hissing through his teeth.

"Because you told me not to." I say.

"Oh... I see, you like being disobedient?" He say cocking his head to the right.

"Yes."

"I see. And I thought I told you to stop licking that top lip?"

"I know you asked. I remember." I say.

"What am I going to do with you. And look at me when I'm talking."

"No..." I say.

"Excuse me?" He says touching my shoulder.

"I.. I said no." I repeat.

"I heard you the first." Rick yells.

"Then why ask me again?" I say.

When I say that, Rick says nothing. He just stood there looking at me. All I see is anger and fear.

"You're mouth can get you into a lot of trouble Miss Beckett. You know that?" He asks

"And?" I say.

"Stop with the smart remarks!" He yells but this time he punches the wall and makes me jump.

"Why are you so angry with me?" I ask.

"Why am I angry?" He asks.

"That's what I said."

He looks at em and smile, but this was not a happy smile. It was anger in it. I think he wants to kill me.

"What... Did I... Say... ABOUT THE FUCKING SMART REMARKS.. HUH?" He yells.

"Can you please stop with the yelling?" I ask, but this time I cry.

"No.. No.. Do not cry. Please don't." He says grabbing my arm.

Looking at him, I think he knows that I'm scared as hell right now. I don't know what came over him. I thought that guys liked it when girls went down on them. I was just trying to repay the favor. Then he yells and starts to ouch the wall and all of that crazy shit. I mean what the hell?

"I'm sorry." He says looking into my eyes and I can fear in his.

"I'm okay, I'm sorry to." I say whipping my eyes.

"No.. You have nothing to be sorry for."

"I shouldn't have went down on you. I thought you would like it." I say looking down.

"I did.. I mean I do like it, but only when I want you to go down on me. I didn't want to come in your mouth." He says

"Oh.."

"I told you to look at me."

"Mmmm."

"Loom at me Kate."

"I can't."

"Yes you can."

"No.."

"Katherine Beckett, look at me." He says with a low, very low voice.

"What?" I hiss.

"There's those beautiful eyes I wanted to see."

"Whatever." I say walking to the kitchen to get a cup of water.

"Where do you think you're going?" He ask pulling on my arm.

"I'm thirsty."

"And." Rick murmur.

"And I'm going to get some water."

"Sit down."

"I don't like being told what to do. I never have." I yell in his face.

"Well we'll have to work on that aren't we?"

"I don't have time for this game you call your self playing." I say throwing my hands in the air walking away with the blanket around me.

"You're a real bad ass."

"I know. And I have a great ass to." I tease pulling up the blanket to expose my naked behind.

"That you do have a great ass. I just have to work on controling it."

"Good luck." I say putting the cup up to my mouth.

"You're the one who is going to need it."

"Do you have some where else to be?" I ask pointing at the door.

"You want me to leave?" He asks rising his eye brows.

"Clearly I do.."

"Is this because you just lost your you know... V Card?" He ass smiling.

"That was a low blow and you know it."

"Does that make you upset?"

I'm silent for a minute or two. I'm wondering when is he going to leave, but he doesn't, he just sits there looking. So I politely turn on my computer and listen my music.

The third song on my playlist has now come on and he is still sitting there but he's not staring at me in he face. He's looking at body. I don't know why and I don't want to know.

Oh my gosh.. So much time has went by ans I can't believe I lost my V Card to Richard freaking Castle. Maybe its hard for MW to believe. That why I haven tbeen thinking about it. But j can say it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

Who would have thought I would've lost it on the table. I feel like a freak. A virgin freak. When I tell Amy about...

"Kate?" Rick calls my name and I ignore him because I'm upset.

"Katherine Beckett, please look at me when I'm fucking talking to you." Now he sounds mad, but I don't care because I'm mad to.

"Why Rick.. Does that make you upset?" I say still looking at my computer scene.

"Look at me." He whispers.

"I'm busy." I say resting my head on my left hand.

Moments later j hear Rick walking towards me and I'm wondering yet again... What is he going to do now.

"KAATTEE!" HE yells. Knocking my computer to the ground.

I look up at him in shock. He's walking around me in circles with his hands on his hips.

Is he crazy or he's just.. Yeah crazy?

"What the fuck Rick?" I yell standing up from the table.

"I told you to look at me?" He whispers.

"I told you I was ticking busy... What you can't hear?" I ask.

"Busy? Busy doing what? Listening to your fucking music?" He say pointing at the computer.

"Yes, as a matter of fact."

"Well I was talking and I wanted you to listen to me."

"People don't always get what it is they want you know."

"I do..."

"Well it from me, now get out."

"No.."

"You will leave my house. I'm not playing."

He stands and look at me confused. A few seconds later he grab his pant pants and the rest of his belongings and left the house.

He didn't say a word when he left. He didn't even loom back at em when he walked out the door.

What have I done? Did I mess this up. Did I go to far. Maybe I was a bit selfish and petty at the same time.