Forever or Never

Chapter 19

I'm currently crying on the ground with my back to the door. Harry pounds on the door for me to let him in.

"Come on Rachel, I-I didn't mean to. I'm sorry."

Finally Harry left and the house and I continue packing my bags. I keep thinking about that kiss. It was just like the one at the beach. I feel the need to give him another chance. I don't know why I am even thinking about giving him another chance. I don't even know him anymore.

I take down all the posters of my walls and my calendar. But before I take the calendar down I see something written on today's date.

End of one month rule

I rip the calendar to shreds and throw it in the trash can. I zip up the last suitcase and put it by the door.

"All done packing?" Said a sweet voice.

"Yea, I'm really going to miss you Addie." I said with a tear rolling down my face.

"Me too."

She walks over to me and gives me a great big hug.

"*sniff* I'm really going to miss you Rachel."

Addie and I are already crying even though we have 5 days left to spend with each other. we will probably cry everyday up until I leave.

I leave the house to go get a cup of coffee. i sit in my car and drink my coffee in the parking lot. I put my phone down and start the car. all of a sudden my phone buzzes.

Meet me in the park now.

Of course, it was from Harry. I ignored the text and started on my way home. But then, I tell my self to go to the park to see what Harry wants. I don't want to leave him out in the cold rain. So I start to drive to the park.

I park my car and see Harry standing under a tree. I take in a deep breath then unbuckle my seat belt. I wake over to Harry who is standing there in a simple jacket soaked in water.

"So I'm here. What do you want?" I say in a mean tone.

He takes in a deep breath then looks away then back at me.

"I-I quit the band."

"Harry why did you do this to yourself. You can't quit the band! They need you."

"Yea but I need you more."

"What are you trying to say Harry?"

He looks away then back at me again.

"I'm going to USA with you."

"What if I don't want you to come with me."

He paces back and forth.

"Look Rachel, I know I screwed up. but please can you give me a second chance."

I look at him with one eyebrow cocked and with my arms crossed.

"Give me one good reason why I should. You got me drunk, had sex with me, and broke 3 different bones in my body. You better come up with a damn good reason why I should give you another chance, cause I'm leaving in 5 days and I'm-"

He kisses me holding my shoulder. I'm standing on my tippy toes trying not to love it. This time I do not pull away from it. Why do I have to hide my love for Harry. Why did I ever doubt our relationship. Finally he pulls away with his hands still on my shoulders.

"Please Rachel, I only need one more chance."

I don't know what to do. I keep saying no but I'm still wanting more. Should I trust him again. Or do I leave him. I'm really not good in these situations so I just run back to my car leaving Harry stranded in the rain.

I get in my car and head straight for home. I pull into the driveway, drop my bag, run upstairs and cry on my bed.