Don't believe everything you are told

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24th July 2014- Day 383 with my brother,

Good morning!

Guess what? Today is the first day I go to my new school, and the day we break up from term...

Pointless I know, but Harry insists that I start today so I can make new friends before the summer holidays.

I’m going to tell you a secret… I’m really scared no one will like me, shh you can’t tell anyone because then Harry will think I am stupid.

Ohh I have to get changed for school now, before Harry or Charlotte tells me once again to “stop reading that silly little book” But they don’t know it’s my diary, so don’t tell them!

(I will write more when I get back from school) J

Lots of Love Jessica <3

I quickly hid my diary under my bed, and scurried to find some clothes for school. Luckily my new school doesn’t have a school uniform in the first year, year 7, lucky me I move up a year after the summer holidays so only have one day to wear free dress, yay. I opened my white wardrobe and looked through my clothes hoping to find the perfect outfit.  Usually I would just wear anything, but I want to make a good impression and make sure people actually want to be my friend.

Pulling out some black leggings and a red t-shirt saying ‘ASH’ on it, what? Uncle Ash specifically bought me this t-shirt so I can wear it to school and that if I am feeling sad I can look at it and think of him, I love him so much.

Before I change I scurry over to the window to see what the weather is like

“Hmm maybe I’ll wear a thin cardigan” I said out loud to myself, as I observed the calming weather, “Not too sunny and not raining” I concluded, as I picked up my school bag which I packed last night, it only had a pencil case in as I would get all my books today.

I picked up by black cardigan, whilst walking out of my bedroom, and down stairs where I was greeted by my brother and his girlfriend.

“Hi” I groaned whilst dropping my school bag by the front door, and walked into the kitchen, where Harry just raised an eyebrow at me while eating some cereal.

“I still don’t understand why I am going to school today, when it’s the last day before the summer holidays, and it is only half a day, pointless.” I spoke, pouring some cereal and milk into a bowl, and sitting down next to my big bro.

“Because it will give you a chance to settle in, and make new friends before the next term, plus I’m the adult here so you do what I say” Harry smirked at me, while drinking his hot chocolate.

“IT’S SO STUPID THOUGH” I shouted, Harry thought this was fun and games, but does he not know how hard I will find it to settle in? How I miss my best friends which he took me away from? I wonder how Lizzie and Kelly are anyway.

“JESSICA, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR BEHAVIOUR RECENTLY, IT’S DISGUSTING. NOW GET IN THE CAR WE ARE GOING TO SCHOOL” Harry shouted back at me, slamming his mug on the table which meant that he spilled it but he didn’t care. He grabbed the car keys and marched to the front door, picking up my school bag on the way. At high speed I gave Charlotte a hug, who was still processing what had just happened, and quickly slipped my school shoes on and sprinted to the car before Harry shouted at me again.

I sat with my arms crossed, not talking to Harry who wasn’t even making an effort to start a conversation. All of a sudden my vision went blurry and my eyes shut.

-Flash Back-

“LOLLY YOU ARE SUCH A STUPID LITTLE GIRL, YOU DON’T DO ANYTHING RIGHT, YOUR BEHAVIOUR IS DISGUSTING IT NEEDS TO CHANGE RIGHT NOW” My old daddy shouted at me, making me flinch with every word he said. Louis was sat in our bedroom, probably listening to what my old daddy was saying. I don’t know what I did wrong, but all of a sudden he started shouting at me while I was walking up the stairs.

I wanted to cry, and shout at him telling him he is the worst daddy ever, but if I did that it would make him angry and he would hurt me.

One tear slipped out my eye, I quickly rubbed it away before old daddy noticed, luckily he didn’t, instead he shouted naughty words at me, and shoved me in my bedroom.

“Here Lolly, come sit with me” Louis whispered, picking me up and placing me on his lap. “I promise you, I will never ever shout at you like that, okay, remember you are beautiful and I love you lots and lots” Louis spoke quietly to me, tears falling out both our eyes now. I don’t understand why he is crying though; maybe he got hurt earlier on or something.

I kissed Louis on the cheek, and snuggled into him, falling asleep for the night.

-End of flash back- (remember that both of their names were changed when they went into care;) )

“Jessica, wake up, what’s wrong? We are at school by the way” Harry spoke rather quickly, panicking probably. Trust him to bring school up.

“Harry, you promised you would never ever shout at me, so why did you?” I spoke quietly, afraid he would shout at me again.

“Oh, um”

DONT KILL ME BECAUSE I HAVENT UPDATED IN AGES

This is only small, because I have a part two for this chapter which i'll upload tomorrow.. also I will write chapters tomorrow for each day of the week to make up for me being gone;) They'll be about 1000 words each so not much :P

Lots of people are saying Jessica acts young for her age, which I agree with you but it’s like she is still a little girl and she is making up for the childhood she never had;) <<- my great explaining right there

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